The Wistful Incense

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The house is breathing, you realize, or perhaps it is only the wind moving through the eaves, but the rhythm is too steady, too deliberate, like the rise and fall of a chest that has forgotten how to stop. You are standing in the center of the grand hall, surrounded by the remnants of a dinner party that has not officially ended but has certainly stopped, the guests having melted into the shadows of the library or the kitchen, leaving you alone with the hostess, Margaret, who is watching you with eyes that are wide and unblinking, a stillness in her face that feels less like calm and more like a held breath. You feel a strange, heavy warmth in your hands, a sensation that is not quite heat but is certainly not cold, and you look down to see that you are holding a small, porcelain urn, its surface cool to the touch despite the fire burning inside it, a fire that does not consume the wood but merely glows, a soft, blue-white luminescence that casts no shadows on the walls but seems to illuminate the dust motes dancing in the air with an intensity that makes them look like tiny, suspended stars. This is the object you have been tasked with keeping, the artifact that the previous owner, a man named Elias whose name you can no longer quite recall, left in your care, and you understand now, with a clarity that feels like a physical blow, that the house does not want to be sold, it wants to be kept, and you are the keeper, though you did not sign a contract, though you did not ask for this burden, you are the keeper because you are the one who remains, the one who does not leave, the one who looks at the empty chairs and sees not absence but presence.

Margaret steps closer, her heels clicking on the marble floor with a sound that is obscenely loud in the silence, and she smiles, a smile that does not reach her eyes, and she says, You have it, and you nod, because what else can you do, because the urn is warm in your hands and it is singing, a low, subsonic hum that you feel in your teeth and in the soles of your feet, and she continues, We tried to throw it away, and you laugh, a dry, brittle sound, and you say, Yes, I heard, and she tilts her head, and her hair falls across her face, and you see in her eyes a reflection of the blue fire, and you realize that she is not the hostess, she is the prisoner, just as you are, and the house is not a house, it is a vessel, a container for a memory that has become too heavy for the living to carry, and you feel a surge of anger, a primal, instinctual rage that bubbles up from the depths of your stomach, and you want to smash the urn against the floor, you want to shatter the porcelain and release the fire, you want to burn the house down to the foundations, but you cannot, your hands are trembling, not with fear, but with a strange, terrible strength, and you realize that you are not holding the urn, the urn is holding you, it is gripping your fingers, it is weaving itself into your skin, and you feel a connection, a bond that is older than language, older than thought, a bond that is based on a shared guilt, a shared mistake, a shared failure that you cannot remember but that you feel in your bones.

The other guests begin to emerge from the shadows, one by one, and they are all smiling, all looking at you with a mixture of pity and envy, and they are holding similar objects, small, glowing things that they keep close to their chests, and they are whispering to each other, their voices a susurrus that blends with the hum of the urn, and you try to speak, you try to tell them to drop their objects, to run, to leave, but your voice is gone, you are voiceless, you are mute, you are part of the house, you are part of the furniture, you are part of the dust, and you feel a profound sadness, a sorrow that is so deep it has no bottom, and you think of the life you left behind, the simple life, the life of bills and groceries and small, mundane arguments, and you realize that you never wanted this, you never wanted to be part of something so large and so old and so indifferent to human suffering, but you are here, you are holding the fire, and you cannot put it down, and Margaret is watching you, and she is crying, silent tears that track down her cheeks, and she says, It is easier than you think, and you know that she is lying, you know that it is the hardest thing in the world, to hold onto something that you know you should let go of, to keep a fire that you know will eventually consume you, but you are afraid, you are afraid of the cold, you are afraid of the empty, you are afraid of the silence that comes after the song, and so you hold on, you tighten your grip, and the fire burns brighter, and the house breathes deeper, and you are the keeper, and you will always be the keeper, and the guests are applauding, a slow, rhythmic clapping that sounds like rain on a tin roof, and they are cheering, and you are happy, and you are sad, and you are both, and you are neither, and you are everything, and you are nothing, and the fire is warm, and the house is quiet, and you are alone, and you are together, and you are free, and you are bound, and you are home.

The party continues, or perhaps it has always continued, time is a flexible thing in this place, it stretches and contracts like a rubber band, and you dance, a slow, graceful dance with Margaret, your feet moving on the marble floor without effort, without thought, and you feel a lightness in your body, a levitation, a release from the gravity of the earth, and you look at her face, and you see in her eyes a love that is not romantic, not sexual, but something else, something transcendent, a love for the moment, a love for the pain, a love for the shared burden, and you love her back, with an intensity that is instinctual, primal, beyond reason, and you feel a tear roll down your cheek, and it is hot, and it burns, and you smile, and she smiles, and the urn in your hands is pulsing, a heartbeat, a life, a soul, and you realize that you are not the victim, you are the vessel, you are the container, you are the fire, and the fire is good, and the fire is bad, and the fire is necessary, and the fire is eternal, and you are the fire, and you are the keeper, and you are the home, and the house is breathing, and the wind is moving, and the dust is dancing, and the guests are watching, and the night is long, and the night is short, and the night is never ending, and you are holding the fire, and you are never letting go.

You wake up in your bed, the sheets tangled around your legs, the sun streaming through the window, and you are alone, and you are cold, and you look at your hands, and they are empty, and you feel a sense of loss, a void, a missing piece, and you try to remember the dream, the party, the urn, Margaret, but the details are slipping away, like sand through your fingers, and you try to hold on to the feeling, the warmth, the connection, but it is gone, and you are just you, and you are ordinary, and you are alone, and you are free, and you are bound, and you are home, and you are not home, and you are the keeper, and you are not the keeper, and you are the fire, and you are not the fire, and you are nothing, and you are everything, and the house is silent, and the house is breathing, and you are listening, and you are waiting, and you are holding, and you are letting go, and you are holding, and you are letting go, and the cycle continues, and the cycle never ends, and you are the keeper, and you will always be the keeper.

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