The Distant Journey

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The iron gates were rusted shut, but the lock was a lie. I could see the mechanism inside, a tangle of seized gears that had not turned in a century. I pushed. It held. I pushed harder, my shoulder digging into the cold metal, my breath coming in short, sharp bursts that fogged in the freezing air.

"Are you going to stand there all day, Thomas?" The voice came from behind me. It was low, steady, and terrifyingly calm.

I did not turn around. I kept my eyes on the gate. "It’s stuck, Master Ashworth."

"Nothing is stuck. People are just too afraid to break things." He walked up beside me. I could smell him. Old wool, pipe tobacco, and that faint, sweet scent of decay that always clung to him. He did not look at the gate. He looked at my hands. My hands were bleeding. The skin was raw, scraped against the jagged iron. He reached out and touched my wrist. His fingers were ice cold. "You are making a mistake."

"I am trying to get in," I said. My voice shook, but I forced it to stay flat. I had to keep it flat. If it broke, I would run. And I could not run. Not this time. "I have the key."

"You have a key to a prison," he said. "You think you are opening a door. You are actually opening a cage."

I turned then. I had to see his face. I needed to know if he was afraid. He wasn't. His eyes were the color of slate, flat and deep, like a stone dropped into a well. He wore the black robes of the Inquisitor, the heavy fabric swallowing his frame. He was young for a man of his rank, perhaps thirty, but he looked older. There was a weariness in him that went deeper than the eyes. It sat in his bones.

"Who is inside?" I asked.

"Everyone," he said. "And no one."

I looked back at the gate. The iron was pitted with holes. Through one of them, I could see a sliver of light. It was yellow, warm, and pulsing. It looked like sunlight, but it felt wrong. It felt like a fever dream.

"I need to go in," I said.

"Thomas," he said, and he used my name softly, the way one might speak to a dog that had bitten a hand. "Do you remember why you were sent here?"

I remembered. I remembered the smell of the hay in the stable. I remembered the weight of the sack on my back. I remembered my mother’s face, pale and tight with fear. She had not said goodbye. She had just handed me the bag and pointed to the road. She had looked at Master Ashworth as if he were a predator circling the pen. She had looked at me as if I were already dead.

"I was sent to find the truth," I said.

"Ashworth smiled. It was a thin, painful expression. "The truth is a heavy thing. Most men break under it. You are not most men. You are my brother. And I love you. That is why I am trying to stop you."

I felt a sting in my chest. A sharp, hot pain. I had forgotten he was my brother. The years had made us strangers. He was the Inquisitor. I was the outsider. The one who asked questions. The one who did not fit into the neat, gray lines of the village.

"What truth?" I asked.

He stepped closer. The air between us seemed to thicken. "The truth is that the walls are not to keep the bad out. They are to keep the good in. Or rather, to keep the *true* in. And the true is a monster, Thomas. It eats."

I pulled the key from my pocket. It was a simple iron key, black with age. It had belonged to my father. He had given it to me the day before he disappeared. He had said, "If you ever hear the singing, use this. Do not listen to the singing. Just turn it."

I raised the key.

Ashworth’s hand shot out and caught my wrist. His grip was iron. He did not strike me. He did not yell. He just held me. "Put it down. Please. For me. For her."

"Who?" I asked.

"Your mother. She is not dead. She is inside. She is singing."

My heart stopped. Then it started again, hammering against my ribs like a trapped bird. "She is dead," I said. "I saw the grave."

"You saw what they wanted you to see," he said. His voice was a whisper now. "They are kind, Thomas. They are so kind. They give you a grave. They give you a story. They make it easy. But it is a lie. A beautiful, comfortable lie. And you are the only one who can see the seams."

I looked at his face. I looked for the lie. I looked for the manipulation. But I only saw pain. He was suffering. He was suffering so much that it made me want to cry.

"Let go," I said.

"No."

"I said let go."

"Thomas, if you turn that key, you cannot turn it back. The light will come out. And it will take everything with it. The village. The people. You. It will consume them all, and it will call it mercy."

"Mercy," I spat. "You speak of mercy like it is a weapon."

"Because it is," he said. "That is what makes it dangerous. People do not fight against evil. They fight against pain. And mercy looks like pain to those who are afraid."

I twisted my wrist. His grip loosened, just a fraction. I pulled my hand free. The blood from my cut dripped onto the stone path. It made a dark spot, a small, dark star.

"I have to try," I said.

"I know," he said. He let go. He stepped back. He did not try to stop me. He just watched. His eyes were wet. "Go, then. But remember me. Remember that I tried to save you from yourself."

I walked to the gate. The iron was cold under my fingers. I fit the key into the lock. It slid in with a smooth, oily click. There was no resistance. It felt like the lock had been waiting for me.

I turned the key.

The gate did not swing open. It dissolved. The iron turned to dust, then to smoke, then to nothing. The light behind it burst forward, not as a beam, but as a wave. It was blinding. It was warm. It smelled of honey and rot.

I fell to my knees. The light washed over me. I expected to be burned. I expected to be destroyed. Instead, I felt a sudden, overwhelming sense of peace. It was the peace of sleep. The peace of the end.

I looked up. The village was gone. The houses, the trees, the road, all of it was fading into a white haze. In the center of the haze, I saw her.

My mother.

She was standing in the light. She was not old. She was young, like she had been when I was a child. She was wearing a white dress. She was smiling. She was singing.

It was a song I had never heard before, but I knew every word. It was the song of the walls. It was the song of the silence. It was the song that told you that everything was fine, that everything was safe, that you did not have to think, or feel, or hurt.

"Thomas," she sang. "Come to me. Come home."

I wanted to go to her. I wanted to run into the light and dissolve into it. I wanted to stop being a man who bled and bled and bled. I wanted to be part of the peace.

But then I saw Ashworth.

He was standing in the shadow of the gate. He was not in the light. He was in the dark. And he was holding a sword.

He did not look at me. He looked at my mother. He looked at the light. And he raised the sword.

"Thomas!" he screamed. "Don't listen! It is a lie! She is not your mother! She is the gate!"

I froze. The light pulsed. The song grew louder. It was beautiful. It was perfect. It was exactly what I wanted to hear.

I looked at Ashworth. He was crying. His face was twisted in agony. He was fighting the light. He was fighting the peace. He was choosing the pain.

"Why?" I shouted. My voice was lost in the song. "Why are you doing this?"

"Because the truth is not a place you go to find comfort," he shouted back. "It is a place you go to find yourself. And you will hate yourself. You will hate me. You will hate everything. But you will be free."

The sword came down.

It did not strike my mother. It struck the ground. It struck the edge of the light.

And the light shattered.

It broke into a thousand pieces, like glass, like ice, like the surface of a frozen lake. The pieces flew outward, piercing the air, piercing the sky. The song stopped. The silence was sudden and absolute.

I was on my knees. The dust was settling. The village was reassembling itself. The houses were back. The trees were back. The road was back.

But my mother was gone.

Ashworth was on the ground. He was holding his sword. His arm was bleeding. The sword had cut him when he struck the ground. He was looking at me. He looked broken. He looked empty.

"I tried," he whispered.

I stood up. My legs were shaking. I looked at the gate. The gate was gone. There was no gate. There was only a hole in the earth. A dark, deep hole.

I looked at Ashworth. I looked at his face. I saw the fear in his eyes. I saw the love. I saw the guilt.

"I hate you," I said.

He nodded. "I know."

"I will never forgive you."

"I know," he said again.

I turned and walked away. I walked down the road. I did not look back. I did not look at the hole. I did not look at the sky. I just walked.

The cold bit into my skin. The wind picked up. It howled through the trees. It sounded like a voice. It sounded like a warning.

I walked until the sun went down. I walked until the stars came out. I walked until my feet bled.

I did not go home. I did not go to the inn. I sat on a rock by the side of the road and I waited. I waited for the sun to rise. I waited for the truth to come back to me.

It did not.

The truth was gone. It had been broken, just like the light. All that was left was the silence. And the pain.

I pulled my coat tighter around me. I closed my eyes. I did not pray. I did not hope. I just endured.

Because that is what we do. We endure. We do not conquer. We do not find peace. We just stay in the dark, and we wait for the next morning. And we hope that the morning will be different. But we know it will not.

We know the walls are still there. We know the gate is still locked. And we know that the only way out is through.

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