The Binding
The binding press sounded like a heartbeat. Steady, patient, rhythmic. Walter Ashford pressed his palm flat against the freshly glued spine of the leather volume and held it there until the adhesive set, then removed his hand and inspected the work with the careful eyes of a man who had spent thirty years making things last.
"I would like to learn," Mary said. She was twenty-six, and her hands were stained with glue and paper dust. She had studied biology in college but never practiced. She helped her father with the binding because there was nothing else she did.
"You are already learning," Walter said. He was sixty-eight, though he looked older -- not from age, exactly, but from the kind of work that makes your body remember what your mind forgets. He hummed when he worked -- a Polish lullaby, the words lost but the melody intact, passing through his fingers like water through cupped hands.
The volume they were binding that morning belonged to a woman from town. Thirty-two pages, handwritten in a cramped hand, describing a life that was neither particularly extraordinary nor particularly tragic. Just a life. Mary folded the paper. Walter sewed the signature. They applied glue to the spine. They wrapped it in leather. It was good work. It was honest work. It was the kind of work that did not change the world.
"Father," Mary said, running her thumb along the edge of the leather cover. "What happens to these books when the people who commissioned them are dead?"
Walter looked at her with the patient expression of a man who had heard this question before and did not mind answering it again. "They sit on shelves," he said. "People buy them at auction. Or they sit in attics until someone sells them for scrap. Paper burns beautifully. Leather lasts longer."
Mary nodded. She did not say what she was thinking: that she wanted her own memories bound in leather, so that when she was gone, someone could hold them in their hands and feel something real.
The commission from a woman in a suit came three days later. She was maybe thirty, wearing clothes that cost more than the shop, and she asked if they did "oral history transcription." Walter said yes. Mary said yes. The woman said she wanted to have her entire life story recorded, transcribed, and bound -- everything, from the first memory she could remember to the last.
Mary asked why. The woman said she was moving abroad and would not be back. She wanted to leave something behind. Something that proved she existed.
Mary bound the woman's memory book. It was two hundred pages long. It was a good life -- not perfect, not terrible, just a life. A life of small joys and small sorrows. A life of loving people who loved her back and people who did not. A life of mornings like this one.
Mary did not ask the woman why she wanted to leave a record behind. She did not tell the woman about the list of things her father had forgotten, written on scraps of paper in a drawer under her desk.
Walter started forgetting things in March. Small things at first. The name of a customer. The address of a regular client. The steps of a binding technique he had performed for thirty years. Mary noticed but did not mention it. She was not the kind of person who made scenes.
She began to write things down. Not in a journal -- she did not have the inclination for literary self-expression. She wrote on scraps of paper, on the backs of invoices, on the margins of old orders. A list of things her father had forgotten:
March 12: forgot customer's name. called him sir for ten minutes before he corrected her. March 18: forgot the binding stitch for German accordion style. had to look it up. it took twenty minutes. March 25: forgot my name. called me sister. I am twenty-six. he is sixty-eight. he called me sister in the voice he used to use for my mother.
Mary continued helping her father. She continued binding memory books for customers. She did not complain. She did not quit. She did not take him to a doctor. She simply continued, day after day, binding books that would outlast the people who commissioned them.
As Walter's memory faded, the books piled up. They filled a corner of the shop. They filled a shelf in Mary's apartment. They were not great works of literature. They were not historically significant. They were just books -- bound, leather-covered, containing the accumulated memories of people who wanted them to survive them.
Walter forgot everything. He forgot Mary's name. He forgot how to bind. He forgot how to speak. But he still hummed. He still hummed the same Polish song he used to hum when Mary was sitting at the workbench beside him, folding paper and learning to sew signatures.
Mary did not stop him from humming. She did not correct him when he called her sister. She simply continued to bind.
One evening, after Walter had been taken to a care facility -- Mary did not visit often; she was not cruel, but she was not close -- she sat in the back room of the shop and bound one more book. It was a blank book. She took a piece of paper and wrote on it:
I think existentialism is not existence precedes essence. It is memory precedes existence. When memory disappears, existence becomes an empty shell. And I am the person who binds empty shells.
She bound the paper inside the blank book. She covered it in leather. She placed it on her shelf, next to the other books.
She knew that when she died, this book would be sold. It would be read. It would be forgotten. Like an empty shell, beautifully bound.
She sat at the workbench, folding a piece of paper. Her father's hum filled the room, or perhaps it was just the sound of the refrigerator in the corner, or the wind outside, or the silence. She could not tell the difference anymore. She did not try.
The binding press sounded like a heartbeat. Steady. Patient. Rhythmic.
And on the shelf beside her, a blank book waited, bound in leather, containing nothing and everything.
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