What the Dust Buried First

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The doorknob was the first to know. A brass knob, installed in 1911 when Vernon Haskill's father had built the farmhouse with lumber hauled from the mill in Enid, its surface once bright enough to reflect a man's face when he leaned in close. By March of 1933, the brass had gone dull as old bone, coated with a film so fine that a thumbprint left on it in the morning would be invisible by noon. The doorknob was the handshake of the house, the first thing a visitor touched, and it had not been touched by a visitor in fourteen months.

Inside, the kitchen table told a longer story. Oak, eight feet long, built by Vernon's father with pegs instead of nails because iron was scarce and a good oak peg outlasted rust. The tabletop carried the geography of thirty-two harvests. Knife marks near the western edge where Vernon's grandfather had carved his initials in 1889 and then carved them deeper in 1894 when the wheat had come in at forty bushels to the acre and a man could afford to be remembered. A dark ring near the center where Pearl's coffee cup had sat every morning for twenty-one years, the heat gradually drawing tannins into the grain until the circle was as permanent as the rings inside the tree the table had been. At the far end, a series of shallow grooves parallel to each other, cut by a child's fork — Otis, who had been five when he had discovered that fork tines made satisfying lines in soft wood and had practiced his alphabet: O-T-I-S, carved twice, the second attempt straighter than the first. The table had been polished every Saturday with beeswax until 1931, when there was no money for beeswax, and by the spring of 1933 the wood had begun to absorb whatever touched it: the moisture from a glass of well water, the grease from salt pork, the grit that settled on every surface no matter how many times Pearl wiped it with a damp rag. The table remembered everything. It was the only one left that did.

On the windowsill above the dry sink, a row of Mason jars stood in descending order of fullness. The first jar, closest to the window, was half-filled with the dust that Pearl swept from the sill every morning, a practice she had begun in January when the first black blizzard had rolled across the panhandle like a tidal wave made of soil. The dust in the jar was stratified — light brown at the bottom, darker in the middle, nearly black at the top — a geological record of the storms that had come, week after week, each one stripping a different layer of topsoil from the fields that had once been green. The second jar contained the metal caps from the Ball jars that had held Pearl's canned peaches, tomatoes, and green beans, preserves that had been eaten by the spring of 1932 when there was nothing else. The caps were rusted at the edges where the moisture from the canning process had never fully dried. The third jar held buttons. Pearl had cut them from the clothes that could no longer be mended, clothes that had been turned into rags, rags that had been stuffed into the cracks around the windows where the dust came in. The buttons were pearl and wood and bone and celluloid, and when the light hit the jar at the right angle, they gleamed like a handful of small, useless moons. The fourth jar was empty. The fifth jar was empty. The sixth, seventh, and eighth jars were empty. The emptiness was the loudest thing in the room.

The family Bible sat on the mantle above the fireplace, a fireplace that had not held a fire since the coal ran out in January. The Bible was the size of a breadbox, bound in black leather that had been oiled every year until 1931 when the oil had been needed for the hinges of the Model T. The leather was cracked now, flaking at the corners, and the cracks formed a pattern that resembled the map of the panhandle counties: Texas County, Cimarron County, Beaver County, the three stubs of Oklahoma that extended westward into nothing. The pages of the Bible were edged in gold leaf that had worn away at the corners where fingers had turned them. The family record page, between the Old Testament and the New, showed the names of five generations in four different hands. Vernon Haskill, born 1898. Pearl McAlister Haskill, born 1901. Married June 14, 1919. Otis Haskill, born 1921. Hazel Haskill, born 1924. Floyd Haskill, born 1929. The ink for the five most recent entries was the same ink — Pearl's hand, neat and small. Below the living names, in a different ink, Vernon's father: Jonathan Haskill, died 1927, pneumonia. Vernon's mother: Ellen Pritchard Haskill, died 1930, the year the rain stopped. The Bible had been read aloud every evening until the spring of 1932, when Vernon had stopped reading. The book's spine, when examined, showed that certain pages fell open more readily than others. The Psalms opened automatically at Psalm 23, the binding cracked at "the valley of the shadow of death." The Book of Job had been read so many times that the pages were thinner than the rest, the paper translucent with handling. The Book of Revelation had never been opened. The spine at that section was as tight as the day the Bible had been printed.

In a cigar box on the top shelf of the pantry, behind the empty flour tins and the sack of beans that had been saved for a special occasion that never came, were the letters. There were seven of them, addressed to Pearl's sister in Bakersfield, California. The first letter, dated September 1931, was six pages long and written on the good stationery with the blue border. It described the weather, the children, the church social, the price of wheat. It said nothing about the dust, because in September of 1931 the dust had not yet come. It said nothing about the bank, because in September of 1931 the bank had not yet sent the first notice. The second letter, dated December 1931, was three pages. The third, March 1932, was two pages. The fourth, June 1932, was one page, written on the back of a feed store receipt. The fifth letter, October 1932, was half a page. The sixth letter, February 1933, was three sentences written on a torn piece of brown wrapping paper: "We are still here. The dust is bad. The children are well." The seventh letter, dated April 1933, was never finished. It sat in the cigar box with only the salutation written: "Dear Etta." Below that, nothing. The pen that had been used to write it lay beside the box, its nib split, its reservoir dry. The letters had never been mailed because stamps cost three cents and three cents bought a loaf of bread, and in a house where the Mason jars stood empty and the flour tins echoed when tapped, a loaf of bread was a more honest use of a nickel than the pretense that words could cross the distance between Oklahoma and California and mean anything at all.

Outside, the Model T stood in the barn where it had been parked in October of 1932. The barn was a cathedral of absence. The stalls that had held the horses, sold in 1930. The pen that had held the pigs, slaughtered in 1931. The loft that had held the hay, the hay that had been grown in 1929 and used up by 1932 when there was no new hay to replace it. The Model T's tires were flat, the rubber cracked in a hundred places like the mud at the bottom of a dried-up pond. The crank that started the engine was still inserted in the front grille, where Vernon had left it after the engine had turned over three times and died, the fuel tank empty and the fuel pump dry and the nearest gasoline station ten miles away in Guymon, a ten-mile walk that Vernon had made twice a month until the money ran out and then never again. On the floor of the back seat, a child's doll lay on its side, its porcelain face cracked along the left cheek, its cloth body stiff with dust. The doll had belonged to Hazel, who had carried it everywhere until her eighth birthday when she had announced that she was too old for dolls and had left it in the car after the last trip to town. That had been sixteen months ago. Hazel was nine now. The doll had not been touched since.

The well stood behind the house, a ring of stones around a hole that had once been sixty feet deep. In 1929, the water had come up cold and clear at forty-five feet. In 1930, the rope had needed to be lengthened to fifty feet. In 1931, fifty-five feet, and the water that came up tasted of iron. In 1932, sixty feet, and the bucket often returned with nothing but mud. By the spring of 1933, the well was dry. The rope hung loose from the windlass, its end frayed where Vernon had cut it with his pocketknife in a moment whose date was not recorded but whose evidence was plain: the cut was clean, the fraying above it minimal, the severed end still lying on the stone ledge where it had fallen. A man who cuts a well rope with a single stroke is a man who has made a decision. A man who leaves the severed end where it falls is a man who has stopped pretending that the decision can be unmade.

The field that had once grown wheat stretched west from the house for a quarter mile, ending at a barbed-wire fence that separated the Haskill land from the Parsons land. The Parsons family had left in March of 1933, their wagon loaded with everything they could carry, their house standing empty with the door open, a door that banged in the wind for three weeks before Vernon walked across the field and closed it himself. The Haskill field was no longer a field. It was a wound. The topsoil, what remained of it, was the color of a bruise, dark gray shot through with ochre, and it shifted constantly, rising into dust devils when the wind blew, settling into new patterns when the wind stopped, a landscape that was never the same from one day to the next. The plow stood in the middle of the field where Vernon had left it in the autumn of 1932 after attempting to turn the soil for winter wheat. The plow blade was polished bright by the wind-driven dust, the steel gleaming like something newly forged. The wooden handles were splintered where Vernon's hands had gripped them, the splinters worn smooth in some places and sharp in others, a map of repeated effort. The plow had not moved in seven months. The field had not been planted in eighteen. The soil that the plow had turned, in that last attempt, had been the color of ashes and the texture of flour, soil that would not hold a seed, soil that had already been dead for a year before Vernon had admitted it.

The porch was where the decisions accumulated. A rocking chair, its runners worn flat from years of evening sitting, faced west toward the field that was not a field. A pair of boots stood beside the door, the leather cracked across the toes, the soles worn through at the heels, the laces knotted in three places. A coffee can on the railing held the butts of hand-rolled cigarettes, the last one smoked down to a quarter inch, the paper yellowed with age. On the wall beside the door, a calendar from the Guymon Feed and Seed hung from a nail, its pages still showing March of 1932, the month that no rain had fallen and the temperature had reached a hundred and four degrees and the first foreclosure notice had arrived in the mail. The calendar had not been turned. No one had touched it. The nail had rusted, leaving an orange stain that ran down the page like a tear, and the stain had discolored the word "MARCH" until it was barely legible, a month being erased by the same chemistry that was erasing everything else.

Inside the house, in the bedroom that Otis and Floyd shared, a schoolbook lay open on the floor. The book was a primer, its cover showing a drawing of a green tree beside a blue river, colors that no longer existed in the world the Haskill children inhabited. Inside, on the page that the book had fallen open to, a paragraph described the water cycle: "The rain falls upon the earth. The rivers carry the water to the sea. The sun draws the water back into the sky. Then it rains again." The paragraph had been underlined in pencil, the line wavering as if the hand that drew it had been uncertain. Below the paragraph, in a child's handwriting that was beginning to resemble an adult's, four words: "What if it stops." There was no question mark. The sentence did not need one.

Pearl's wedding ring was in the top drawer of the dresser, wrapped in a handkerchief embroidered with her initials. The ring was gold, thin from twenty-two years of wear, the inner surface worn smooth against the knuckle. It had been removed from her finger in January of 1933, when her hands had grown so thin from the diet of beans and cornbread that the ring kept slipping off. The ring had been a gift from Vernon's mother, who had received it from her own mother, who had brought it from Kentucky in a wagon in 1889. Three generations of women had worn this ring, had cooked and planted and birthed and buried with this ring on their fingers, and now it lay in a handkerchief in a drawer, waiting for a fourth generation that might come or might not, that might be born in Oklahoma or might be born in California or might not be born at all.

The dress in the closet was the color of roses, a color that had been chosen in 1919 for a June wedding in a church that still held services every Sunday. The dress had been worn once. It had been packed in cedar chips for twenty-two years and the cedar smell clung to it still, a smell of preservation, of things kept safe against time. The cedar chips had been replaced every year until 1931 when the cedar tree in the yard had died and there was no money to buy cedar from the store. The dress was the same size it had been in 1919. Pearl was not.

In the morning, when the sun rose over the panhandle, the light came through the east window of the kitchen and fell on the table where Vernon sat alone. The light was orange and thick, filtered through the dust that hung in the air even on days when there was no storm, dust so fine that it never settled, dust that had traveled from as far away as Nebraska and Kansas and Colorado, soil that had once belonged to other farmers, other families, other dreams. The light moved across the table, illuminating first the initials, then the coffee ring, then the child's practice letters, then the breadcrumbs from last night's supper, then the empty space at the far end where Pearl used to sit. Vernon watched the light move. He had been watching the light move every morning for a year, since the morning after the family had gathered in this kitchen and made the decision that everyone but the Haskills had already made. The Parsonses had gone to California. The Millers had gone to Oregon. The Whittakers had gone to Texas, which was just another kind of dust in a different direction. But Vernon had looked at the fields that were no longer fields and the well that was no longer a well and the table that held the geography of thirty-two harvests, and he had said no. Not to California. Not to Texas. Not to the exodus. He had said no to leaving, which in a world where everyone was leaving was a kind of refusal so complete that it resembled an act of violence. Pearl had looked at him across the table. Otis had looked at him. Hazel had looked at him. Floyd had looked at him. And none of them had argued, because the Haskill name was carved into this table the way the table was carved into the land, and some things, once carved, could not be uncarved without destroying the thing itself.

And so they stayed. The dust filled the Mason jars and the Bible's pages grew thinner and the letters sat in the cigar box and the Model T's tires cracked further and the doll lay on its porcelain face and the well rope hung severed and the plow gleamed in the field and the calendar stayed frozen on March of 1932. They stayed through the spring storms that turned noon into midnight and the summer heat that baked the dust into brick and the autumn that brought no rain and the winter that brought no snow. They stayed because leaving would have meant that the land had won, and the land had already taken enough. The land had taken the wheat and the water and the cedar tree and the Mason jars' contents and the Model T's fuel and the stamps for the letters and the gold from Pearl's wedding ring and the fat from Pearl's body and the green from the world outside the window. It could have the rest. It could have everything that was left. But it could not have the Haskills, because the Haskills had decided that they would rather be buried by their own land than scattered across someone else's. This was not hope. This was not defiance. This was the logic of the soil itself, the understanding that some seeds only germinate after a fire, and that some returns are so absolute that they circle back around and become what they were fleeing.

On the morning of April 14, 1935, the worst dust storm in the history of the panhandle rolled across the Haskill farm. The storm was two thousand feet high and a hundred miles wide, and when it came, it came like the end of the world. The objects inside the house had no way to record this event except by what happened to them. The doorknob disappeared. The Mason jars filled and overflowed. The Bible's pages fluttered in a wind that should not have been able to reach the mantle, and when the storm passed, the Bible was open to the Book of Exodus. The cigar box was buried. The letters were buried. The doll was buried. The plow was buried. The house was buried to the windowsills. And when the Haskills dug themselves out — doors that opened inward onto a wall of packed soil, window panes that showed nothing but earth — they found their possessions changed in ways that only objects can change: the kitchen table was darker, the coffee ring now indistinguishable from the surrounding wood; the breadcrumbs were gone, eaten by mice that had found their way into the house through the cracks; the calendar still showed March of 1932, but the rust stain from the nail had spread across the entire page, erasing the month entirely. The Haskills dug themselves out and went back inside and sat at the table and ate the last of the beans and did not speak, because the objects had already said everything there was to say, and the objects were still there, and the Haskills were still there, and in the zero-sum arithmetic of the dust bowl, that was the only answer that had ever been possible.


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