I.

I am not a person who runs. I run because I have to, and running is not the same thing as choosing to run, which is something I am still learning, slowly, over the course of three weeks that will change everything I thought I knew about the man who follows me.

His name is麦老麦，or at least that is what the other tenants call him on the Brooklyn walk-ups where I pass him on the stairs. He is old, maybe sixty-five, with a face like a map of every street in this borough, and he wears a uniform that used to belong to the postal service. Retired, the mail carriers say. Crazy now. Something about his son.

I do not know any of this in the beginning. In the beginning, I know only that a man is following me, and I do not know why, and I do not know what to do about it.

My name is Danny Rodriguez. I am twenty-two years old, and I work as a delivery courier for a company called SwiftDrop, which means I spend twelve hours a day on a bicycle riding through Brooklyn, carrying packages from warehouses in Bushwick to apartments in Bed-Stuy and Crown Heights and Flatbush, and I am very good at my job because I know every shortcut and every dead-end street and every bodega that sells coffee at two in the morning.

I am also, apparently, a substitute for a dead man's grief.

II.

It started on a Tuesday. I was riding my bike down Fulton Street, a package in my delivery bag, when I noticed a man standing on the corner, watching me. He was old, wearing a faded postal uniform, and he was watching me the way a hawk watches a field mouse: not with malice, exactly, but with a focus that made my skin crawl.

I pedaled faster. He did not move.

The next day, he was on the same corner. The day after that, he was two blocks away, but he was still watching me. By the end of the first week, I had changed my route three times, and he had found me each time, always standing at the edge of the sidewalk, always watching, never approaching.

I told my friends at SwiftDrop. They told me to call the police. I did not call the police because I did not want the police involved, and also because I suspected, even then, that this was not a crime.

On the eighth day, I decided to confront him. I parked my bike on the corner near the abandoned lot on Nostrand Avenue and walked up to him.

"Can I help you?" I said.

He looked at me with eyes that were clear and sad and full of something I could not name. "You ride fast," he said.

"What?"

"You ride fast. Your bike. You're good at it."

"I deliver packages. I have to be fast."

He nodded slowly. "My son was fast. He had a bike too."

I did not know what to say to that. So I said nothing. I got on my bike and rode away, and I looked back once and saw him still standing on the corner, watching me go, his hands in the pockets of his old uniform, his shoulders slightly bent like a man carrying something heavy that he had forgotten how to put down.

III.

I started running from him. Not literally, at first. I changed my routes, took longer paths, rode through neighborhoods I did not know. But he was always there, or he had already moved to where I was going, as if he could predict my movements the way a tide predicts the shore.

One night, after a long shift, I sat on the steps of the bodega on Myrtle Avenue and watched him from across the street. He was sitting on a bench, his head tilted back, his eyes closed, his mouth slightly open. He looked like a man sleeping with his eyes open, which is to say he looked like a man who was not sleeping at all.

I walked across the street and sat down on the other end of the bench. He did not open his eyes.

"My name is Danny," I said.

He opened one eye. "I know your name."

"Then why do you follow me?"

He was quiet for a long time. The bodega across the street was playing a baseball game on a small television in the window, the announcer's voice rising and falling like a song.

"My son's name was Miguel," he said finally. "He was twenty-four. He worked for the postal service. He was the fastest mail carrier in the borough. He could deliver a route in half the time and still have time to stop and talk to every grandmother on his route."

"I'm sorry," I said. And I was. I was sorry in a way that surprised me, because I did not know this man, and he was following me like a shadow, and yet I was sorry.

"He died,"麦老麦 said. It was not a question. It was a statement, flat and final, like a door closing.

"How?"

"He was driving his mail truck. It was raining. A truck ran a red light. There was nothing he could do." He opened both eyes and looked at me. "After he died, I retired. I stopped going to the office. I stopped talking to my wife. I sat in our apartment and I listened to the phone and I waited for it to ring with news that would never come."

He paused. The baseball announcer's voice had changed to a commercial.

"Then I started seeing you. You ride like Miguel. Your body, the way you lean into the turns, the way you push your weight forward when you accelerate. You are not him. You are a young man with brown skin and a name I cannot pronounce. But you ride like him, and for a few hours every day, when I watch you ride, I can pretend that my son is still out there, delivering his mail, coming home to his mother."

IV.

I did not understand him then. I understood him a little, but not enough, and understanding is not the same thing as knowing, and knowing is not the same thing as being able to carry.

I kept riding. I kept being followed. And slowly, over the course of another week, I began to understand that麦老麦 was not following me because he wanted to hurt me. He was following me because he had nowhere else to go.

One evening, I stopped my bike on the Brooklyn Bridge and waited for him to catch up. He arrived ten minutes later, walking slowly, his hands in his pockets, his shoulders bent.

I pointed to the railing, to the view of the Manhattan skyline across the water, the towers rising into the twilight like fingers reaching for something just out of reach.

"Sit down," I said.

He sat. We sat together on the cold metal railing, looking at the city, and for the first time, neither of us said anything for a long time.

"Your son," I said finally. "What was he like?"

麦老麦 looked at me, and in his eyes I saw a reflection of every father who had ever lost a child, and I felt something crack open inside me, something I had been carrying since I came to this city from the Bronx, since I left my mother and my sister and a life that was small but whole and came to Brooklyn to deliver packages and be invisible.

"He was kind,"麦老麦 said. "He was the kindest man I ever knew. He would stop for every grandmother. He would carry packages for people who could not carry their own. He would walk two blocks out of his way to make sure an old lady got her medication."

"He sounds like a good man."

"He was the best man I knew."

I looked at the skyline. The lights were coming on, one by one, like stars being switched on in a vast and indifferent universe.

"I'm not him," I said.

"I know,"麦老麦 said. "But you ride like him. And that is enough. For now, it is enough."

We sat until the bridge was dark and the city was full of lights and the wind off the East River was cold enough to make our teeth ache. Then麦老麦 stood up, straightened his back for the first time since I had met him, and walked away.

He did not look back. I did not ride away either. I sat on the railing and watched him walk down the bridge, his figure growing smaller and smaller until he was just a dark shape against the city lights, and then he was gone.

I got on my bike and rode home. I did not look back.

V.

The next morning,麦老麦 was not on the corner. The next day, he was not on his bench. The next week, I rode my route through Brooklyn and I did not see him once.

I told myself I was relieved. I told myself that a crazy old man had stopped following me and that was a good thing, that I did not need a ghost riding my shoulders, that I had enough problems without carrying the grief of a stranger.

But at night, in my apartment in Crown Heights, I would sit at my small table and think about a man who had followed me for three weeks because I reminded him of his son, and I would wonder if I had done the right thing by sitting with him on the bridge, by listening to him, by letting him be a father for a few hours instead of a madman on a corner.

I do not know the answer. I do not think there is an answer. There is only the riding, and the packages, and the streets of Brooklyn that I know better than the rooms of my own apartment, and the memory of an old man sitting beside me on a bridge, looking at a city that would never know his name or his son's name or the weight he was carrying.

I ride fast. I ride every day. And sometimes, on the corners where I used to see him, I slow down, just for a moment, and I look around, and I wonder if he is there, watching me go, carrying his grief across the streets of a city that has no room for grief and no time for old men who follow young strangers because they remind them of what they have lost.

I keep riding. I keep running. Not away from him. Not toward anything. Just riding, on a bike, through the streets of Brooklyn, carrying packages that are not mine to a people who do not know my name, and wondering if that is enough.

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