The Exit Ramp
The crash happened on an exit ramp off Interstate 70, outside a town that has a name but nobody in this story uses it. The ramp curves to the right, there is a guardrail on the outside, and the guardrail ends where the car hits it. After that, it is just physics.
Ryan Kowalski's Chevrolet was an '04 model, gray, with a dent in the passenger door from when he backed into a loading dock in Chicago two years ago. The dent never got fixed. Neither did a lot of other things.
Officer Dale Riggs got the call at 3:17 in the morning. He was at home, asleep, the way a man who has been driving for twelve hours a day for twenty-three years sleeps, which is to say he was not really asleep but lying in the dark with his eyes closed and his mind thinking about nothing, which is the closest a man like Dale Riggs gets to meditation. The phone rang, he answered it, he listened, he said okay and he hung up and he was in the patrol car in four minutes, which is fast for a man his age but normal for a man who has done this a thousand times and has the muscle memory of it in his hands and his feet and the way his body sits in the seat.
His partner was Officer Chris Newman. Chris was younger—thirty-two, married eighteen months, mortgage, a dog named Buster that he talked to on the phone when he thought nobody was listening. Chris was driving. Dale was looking out the window at the dark passing by, the strip malls and the gas stations and the buildings with their lights off and their signs dark, the kind of landscape that exists between places and is meant to be driven through and not looked at, because what you see is not interesting and what you see will not change and what you see is the thing that men like Dale Riggs have spent their lives driving through and will spend the rest of their lives driving through and the only difference is that some days they are going one way and some days they are going the other and some days they are going to a crash and some days they are not.
The scene was exactly what a scene on an exit ramp off Interstate 70 outside a town that has a name but nobody uses it looks like. The car was on its side, gray, dent in the passenger door, airbags deployed, the kind of deployment that fills the inside of a car with white powder that gets on everything and stays on everything and you will be finding it in your car for the next ten years, in the cracks between the seat and the console, in the vents, under the floor mats, in places you did not know existed.
Chris got out and stood for a moment looking at the car, the way a man looks at something he does not want to look at but has to look at because that is the job. Dale got out and walked around the car, his flashlight beam moving over the damage, the cracked windshield, the broken taillight, the fluid leaking onto the asphalt in a dark puddle that was spreading slowly, the way fluids always spread, slowly and inevitably, until they cover everything they can reach and then they stop, because that is all they can do.
"Single vehicle," Chris said. "No other cars in the area. Road is dry. Weather is clear. Visibility is good."
Dale nodded. He was looking at the driver's side. The door was crumpled, the frame bent, the window gone. He could see the body. The man was young—thirty at most, maybe less. He was wearing a jacket that was too thin for October, a denim jacket with the collar turned up, the kind of jacket a man wears because it is all he has or because it reminds him of someone who had it before him. His face was turned toward the window, and the window was gone, and the moonlight was on his face, and his face was calm, the way a face is calm when the nervous system has stopped firing and the muscles have relaxed and the thing that was holding the face together is gone.
"Name's on his wallet," Chris said, walking over with a plastic bag containing the contents of the man's pockets. "Ryan Kowalski. Address is a trailer park off Route 9, outside a town that has a name but nobody in this story uses it. Occupation—warehouse worker. Chicago. Returned from Australia six months ago."
Dale took the wallet. It was a leather wallet, worn at the edges, the kind of wallet a man keeps for years because replacing it is something he has been meaning to do and has never gotten around to. Inside were a driver's license, a debit card with a balance of forty-three dollars, and a photograph of a man who looked like Ryan Kowalski but was older, with grayer hair and a face that had been carved by years of work in a factory that no longer exists.
"His father?" Dale asked.
"Maybe. Or his brother. Or his uncle. He looks like him."
Dale put the wallet in an evidence bag. He looked at the body one more time, then he looked at the road, the ramp, the guardrail that ended where the car hit it, the asphalt where there were no skid marks, no brake marks, nothing, just the smooth, unbroken surface of a road that had done what roads do, which is to say nothing, because roads do not cause accidents. Men cause accidents. Or they don't. Sometimes things just happen, and the road is a road, and the car is a car, and the man is dead, and there is nothing to investigate and nothing to learn and nothing to do except fill out the paperwork and call the coroner and go home and try to sleep and fail.
But Dale was a professional, and professionals do things the way they are supposed to be done, even when there is nothing to be done and the doing is just a formality and the formality is just a way of pretending that the system works and the system does work, mostly, most of the time, in most ways, for most people, even though most of the time the system is just two men in a patrol car driving through a landscape that is meant to be driven through and not looked at, filling out paperwork about dead men they will never remember and crashes they will never understand and going home to apartments that are too quiet and beds that are too big and wives who have stopped asking where he has been and when he will be back and whether he is happy, because they have learned that the answers are not the answers they want to hear and the not-hearing is easier than hearing.
They transported the body to the county morgue, which is a building that smells like formaldehyde and old coffee and regret, and Dale filled out the reports, which are forms with boxes to check and lines to fill in and questions to answer, and most of the questions are the same questions every time: name, age, address, occupation, cause of death, manner of death, and the manner of death box has four options: natural, accident, homicide, suicide. Dale checked accident. He always checks accident, because most of the time it is accident, and when it is not, it is hard to prove, and when it is homicide, the victim is usually someone who has been dead for a while and the cause of death is obvious, like a gunshot or a stab wound, and this man had no gunshot wounds and no stab wounds. He had blunt force trauma and broken bones and a face that was unrecognizable, which is the kind of death that is hard to categorize and easy to call accident because accident is the category for things that happen fast and hurt a lot and leave no clear story behind.
Chris was at the man's trailer park, looking for next of kin, which is a phrase that means the person you call when someone dies and the person you call is usually a mother or a brother or an ex-wife or someone who loved the dead man once and does not love him anymore but will come to the funeral anyway because that is what you do, because funerals are for the living, not the dead, and the living need a place to stand and a reason to cry and a box to put the dead man in so they can close it and go home and try to sleep and fail.
The trailer was in a park full of trailers, all the same size, all the same color, all the same shade of beige that is the color of people who have given up on painting. Chris knocked on the door numbered 14, and a man answered, a man in his forties with a face that was the kind of face you see in places like this, which is to say a face that has been outside too much and in the sun too much and in the wind too much and has become the color and texture of the outside, the sun, and the wind.
"Officer Newman," he said. "Can I help you?"
"I'm looking for Mike Brennan."
"That's me. Who's asking?"
"Someone died last night. Ryan Kowalski. Do you know him?"
Mike's face did not change. It was a good face for this—a face that had learned, over years, that changing your face does not change what is happening, so you might as well keep it the same and save the energy for whatever comes next, which is usually nothing different from what came before.
"Yeah," he said. "I know Ryan."
"Where were you last night?"
Mike looked at him for a moment, considering whether to answer, whether the answer mattered, whether anything matters in a question like this asked by a man in a uniform who is going to ask the same question to a hundred people and remember none of their answers and file them in a drawer and forget them, and Mike decided that the answer did not matter and he might as well give it, because giving it is easier than not giving it, and not giving it requires a lie, and lies take energy, and Mike did not have energy to spare.
"At home," he said. "Sleeping."
"You sure?"
"I'm sure."
Chris was writing it down, which is what he does, write everything down, because writing things down is the job, and the job is to write things down and check boxes and fill in lines and go home and try to sleep and fail.
"Did Ryan owe you money?" Chris asked. It was a standard question, asked of everyone, the way a net is cast wide and most of what it catches is nothing, but you cast it anyway because sometimes, once in a while, you catch something.
Mike was silent for a moment. Then: "Yeah. He owed me money."
"How much?"
"Three thousand."
"Did he have a plan to pay you back?"
Mike looked at him. The look was flat, empty, the look of a man who has been asked this question before and will be asked it again and the asking will not change anything and the money will not come and the three thousand dollars will remain three thousand dollars, a number in a man's mind that represents work done and not paid for and a trust given and not returned and a relationship that existed once and does not exist anymore and will never exist again, reduced to a number because that is all it can be reduced to in a world that has forgotten how to count anything that cannot be deposited in a bank or swiped on a card.
"No," Mike said. "He didn't have a plan."
Chris wrote it down. Three thousand dollars. No plan. He put the pen in his pocket and looked at Mike, who was standing in his doorway, wearing a t-shirt and jeans and the expression of a man who is tired and does not want to be here and wants the officer to leave and wants to go back to whatever he was doing before the knock on the door, which was probably nothing, because in places like this, nothing is what people do.
"Thank you, Mr. Brennan," Chris said.
Mike nodded. He closed the door. Chris stood on the trailer step for a moment, looking at the row of trailers, all the same, all the same shade of beige, all the same size, all the same story, and then he got in his car and drove back to the station, where Dale was finishing the reports, and they sat in silence for a while, the silence of two men who have seen a dead man and filed the paperwork and done the job and are now waiting for the next call, which will come, because the phone always rings, and when it does, they will get in the car and drive, and the landscape will pass by, and the strip malls and the gas stations and the buildings with their lights off will pass by, and the exit ramp off Interstate 70 will pass by, and the guardrail that ends where the car hits it will pass by, and the gray Chevrolet on its side will pass by, and the man in the denim jacket with the dent in the passenger door will pass by, and the three thousand dollars that will not be paid will pass by, and the trailer park with its row of identical beige trailers will pass by, and the man who closed his door and went back to nothing will pass by, and the next call will come, and they will drive, and the landscape will pass by, and the cycle will continue, because that is what the job is, not the crashes or the dead men or the three thousand dollars or the trailer parks, but the driving, and the passing by, and the knowing that nothing changes and everything passes by and the only thing you can do is keep driving and keep looking and keep filling out the forms and checking the boxes and going home and trying to sleep and failing, because that is all any of us can do.
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