The Antibodies

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Dr. Farid Hassan was a professor of English literature at Oakhaven College, a small liberal arts college in upstate New York, and he was, by every professional metric, successful. He had published two books. He had taught for twelve years. He had received positive evaluations from his students. He was respected by his colleagues and unknown outside the campus. And then, slowly, gradually, almost imperceptibly, the community around him began to produce antibodies.

There was no mob. There were no pitchforks. There was no violence of any kind. The rejection was never violent. It was the slow withdrawal of invitations, the silence at faculty meetings, the way colleagues crossed the street to avoid him, the way his name was no longer mentioned when committees were formed, the way his emails were answered with increasing delay and increasing brevity, the way the warm handshakes of twelve years became cool nods and then nods that did not include eye contact and then simply not nodding at all.

The antibodies were produced by the community, not as a coordinated response but as an immune system responds to a perceived threat: automatically, gradually, and without conscious intention. The body does not decide to produce antibodies. It does so because its systems detect something that does not belong, something that is marked as other, and the response is mechanistic and inevitable and, from the perspective of the system, necessary for survival.

Farid felt the change beginning in the autumn of 2004. He was not sure what had triggered it. He had not said anything controversial. He had not done anything that deviated from his professional norms. He taught the same courses he had always taught: postcolonial literature, modern British fiction, the novel after 1945. He attended department meetings and contributed thoughtfully and then stopped contributing because he noticed that his contributions were met with silence rather than engagement, and so he stopped, which made the silence complete.

The first antibody was an invitation that was not sent. The college was hosting a lecture series in the fall, and for the previous eleven years, Farid had been invited to participate, usually on topics related to his expertise. This year, no invitation came. He did not ask about it. He assumed, correctly, that his name had not been considered. The assumption was correct but the reasoning behind it was not what Farid thought. It was not that his colleagues had decided he was no longer valuable. It was that they had decided he was no longer safe.

The word other had entered the campus culture in the months after September 11, 2001, and it had been applied, implicitly and increasingly explicitly, to people who were marked as different from the default assumption of American, which was coded as white and Christian and unquestionably loyal. Farid was a Muslim-American. He was born in Detroit. His parents had emigrated from Egypt. He was a citizen. He had spent his entire adult life in this country. But the word other had been applied to him and to people like him and the application was gentle and indirect and never stated outright but it was present in everything, in the way that people looked at him in the dining hall, in the way that his name was mispronounced with increasing frequency, in the way that conversations shifted when he entered a room.

The second antibody was the silence at faculty meetings. Farid had always been an active participant in department meetings. He was knowledgeable, articulate, and generous with his time. But he began to notice that when he spoke, people stopped writing and looked at their notebooks rather than at him, and when he made a suggestion, it was either ignored or repeated by someone else and then accepted, as if his words could not be received directly from him but had to be validated through repetition by someone who was not marked as other.

He stopped speaking. Not dramatically. Not with a statement or a gesture. He simply stopped contributing. And the meetings became quieter and easier for everyone else and the silence reinforced the pattern, because when Farid was silent, there was no evidence that he was being excluded, and the exclusion could continue without appearing to be exclusion.

The third antibody was the crossing of the street. This happened once, and Farid was certain of it, and it was small and almost meaningless and it was also devastating. He was walking back from lunch on a Saturday, when the campus was nearly empty, and he saw Department Chair Eleanor Price coming toward him from the opposite direction. Eleanor had been friendly for twelve years. She had celebrated his promotions and his book publications and his tenure. She had eaten dinner at his house. She had known his wife Leila and his two daughters.

And she saw him and she crossed the street.

She did not do it dramatically. She did not change direction sharply or speed up her pace in a way that would have been obvious. She simply adjusted her trajectory by a few feet, enough to increase the distance between them, enough to avoid walking past him on the sidewalk. It was a small gesture. It was also a declaration. It said, without words, that the proximity of his body to her body was something to be avoided, that the default assumption of familiarity and welcome that had existed for twelve years had been replaced by an assumption of distance and caution.

Farid did not say anything. He did not call after her. He did not confront her. He walked the rest of the way to his office in silence and he felt the antibody produce itself in his chest, a physical sensation of rejection that was not violent but was also not nothing, that was small and cumulative and slow and therefore, in some ways, more devastating than violence would have been, because violence is clear and identifiable and named, and this was unclear and diffuse and nameless, and the lack of a name made it impossible to address.

The rejection accumulated. Committee assignments that had always come his way stopped. His course load was increased, not as a professional challenge but as a way of keeping him busy and out of the spaces where collaboration happened, because a professor who is teaching five courses a semester has less time to serve on committees and build relationships and participate in the informal networks that sustain academic life. The increased load was justified as fairness, as distributing teaching equally, but the effect was isolation.

Leila noticed first. She is a nurse at the local hospital and her world was outside the campus, and she saw the antibodies in her own community, in the way that the other parents at her daughters school began to ask questions that were framed as curiosity but were really interrogation, about prayers and holidays and whether Farid supported certain organizations and whether he had ever expressed opinions that suggested sympathy for violence. The questions were asked politely. They were asked with concern. They were not asked aggressively. And they were also not asked of any other parent whose husband was a professor at the college.

Leila warned Farid. She told him that people were asking questions. She told him that she felt uncomfortable. Farid listened and he nodded and he said that people had a right to be curious and that understanding requires questions and he believed this, in some abstract way, but he did not believe it about the questions that were being asked of him, because he recognized them for what they were: not requests for understanding but performances of suspicion, and each performance reinforced the antibody response in the community, each question was a small rejection, each polite interrogation was a dose of the antibody that weakened the immune system of the relationship until there was nothing left to fight against because the thing being fought against was not an action or a statement or a behavior but an identity, and identity cannot be changed and therefore the rejection cannot be resolved and the only option is withdrawal.

Farid withdrew. He did not resign. He did not protest. He did not file a grievance. He continued to teach and to grade and to hold office hours and to do the work of a professor, and he did it well, and he received positive evaluations, and he continued to publish, and he continued to show up every day and do his job with professionalism and integrity, and the community around him continued to produce antibodies, and the distance grew, and the silence deepened, and the invitations stopped, and the name was no longer mentioned when it should have been, and the crossing of the street became routine, and the questions at the school became more frequent, and the slow, gradual hardening of the social fabric around him became something that was visible to anyone who had known him before and was looking for evidence of change.

He was not in danger. No one threatened him. No one was violent. The rejection was entirely nonviolent and entirely systematic and entirely effective. And the effectiveness was what made it unbearable, because there was no villain to confront, no mob to resist, no clear wrong that could be righted. The rejection was the sum of a thousand small decisions made by ordinary people who believed they were being careful and concerned and reasonable, and the accumulation of those decisions was a form of exile, and exile without a decree, and violence without a hand, and rejection without a face.

Farid sat in his office one evening in April 2005, after the last student had left and the campus was quiet and the antibodies had done their work and the distance was complete and he was, in every way that mattered, alone in a community of three hundred colleagues who had once welcomed him and who now existed in a relationship of polite neutrality that was the academic equivalent of the street being crossed to avoid proximity, and he opened a book, a novel by Mohsin Hamid, and he read a sentence that said: You do not get to choose when you become other. You simply wake up one day and find that the world has changed its mind about you.

He closed the book. He sat in the silence. And he understood that the immune system of a community, like the immune system of a body, does not distinguish between threat and difference. It responds to markers, to signals, to the simple fact of not being the same, and the response is automatic and gradual and often unconscious, and the person who is rejected does not experience it as persecution but as weather, as a slow change in climate that is felt rather than seen, felt as a gradual cooling, a gradual distancing, a gradual hardening, until the cold is complete and the distance is total and the hardening is permanent and the only thing left to do is to adapt or to leave, and Farid did not know which option was available to him, because adapting meant accepting the antibodies and leaving meant admitting that the community had decided, through a thousand small rejections, that he was other, and neither option was acceptable, and neither option was acceptable and therefore both were inevitable and he would adapt and he would leave and the antibodies would continue producing themselves in the community long after he was gone, directed at the next person who was marked as different, and the cycle would continue, and the immune system would protect itself, and the body of the community would remain healthy and safe and unchanged, and the change would be in the people who had been expelled from it, and those people would carry the antibodies with them for the rest of their lives, not as physical marks but as the memory of the moment when the world changed its mind and the cold set in and there was no violence and no shouting and no mobs and no pitchforks and no one to fight and no one to blame and only the slow, gradual, invisible production of antibodies by a body that had decided, without knowing it was deciding, that the person standing in front of it was something other than itself.


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