Cold Coffee in Duluth
The coffee had gone cold three hours ago. Mike didn't care. Cold coffee was better than no coffee, and no coffee was better than talking to people, and talking to people was the worst thing you could do in a place like this.
Duluth in December was not a city. It was a condition. A condition you caught like a cold and carried with you until spring, if spring ever came and decided to include you in its plans.
Mike Kowalski sat in his car—a 1998 Ford Taurus with a rusted-out passenger door and a heater that blew lukewarm air that smelled like wet dog—parked outside a strip mall on London Road. The strip mall contained a payday loan place, a laundromat, and a Chinese restaurant that had closed two years ago and wouldn't be demolished for another three.
His phone rang. He let it ring four times before answering.
"Position confirmed?" The voice on the other end was male, neutral, devoid of accent or emotion. It could have been anyone. It could have been no one.
"Position confirmed," Mike said. "Guy in the park. Bench facing the lake. Gray coat."
"Proceed."
The line went dead. Mike put the phone down and watched the Chinese restaurant for a minute. The windows were boarded up with plywood that had once been white and was now the color of old teeth. Through a crack in the boards, he could see the faint outline of a counter and a row of stools. Someone had eaten noodles here once. Someone had laughed. Someone had come back to work the next day and told their spouse about the good broth.
Now it was just plywood and wind.
Mike started the car and drove to the park.
The park was small—three acres of dead grass and bare trees and a playground with rusted swings that hadn't moved in months. The bench he was looking at faced Lake Superior, which was the color of wet slate and was currently covered with a thin layer of ice that cracked and shifted with the wind.
The man on the bench was exactly where he had been described: gray coat, hat pulled low, hands tucked into his sleeves. He was feeding pigeons. Not the fat, fearless pigeons of Manhattan that would climb onto your shoe and stare into your eyes. These were Duluth pigeons—skinny and suspicious, landing three feet away and then hopping closer only when the food stopped moving.
Mike got out of the car and walked toward the bench. He didn't rush. He walked at the pace of a man who had nowhere to be and all the time in the world to waste.
He stopped two feet from the bench. The man didn't look up.
"Afternoon," Mike said.
"Afternoon."
The man tossed another handful of crumbs to the pigeons and then sat very still. His hands were back in his sleeves now. Mike noticed that his left hand was trembling slightly. Not much. Just enough to tell you he was sixty at least and had been doing hard things with his body for a long time.
"You come here often?" Mike asked. This was not in the contract. The contract said nothing about conversation. But Mike had been a cop for twenty-two years, and twenty-two years of police work taught you one thing: people talk when you ask them stupid questions.
"Every day," the man said. "Weather's bad, I come here anyway. Weather's good, I come here anyway. The lake doesn't change. Why should I?"
Mike nodded. He looked at the lake. The ice was cracking again, a sound like distant gunfire.
"You know," the man said, still not looking at Mike, "I used to work at the iron range. Mesabi. Thirty years. Thirty years underground, and then thirty years on the surface, and then thirty years telling people at bars that it was the best job in the world because you came home clean. Which was a lie. You came home covered in something that was never coming off. Iron dust in your lungs. Iron dust in your blood. Iron dust in your kids' hair when they hugged you."
Mike said nothing.
"My wife died five years ago. Cancer. The union had a fund, but the fund was empty by the time they got to us. My son lives in Minnesota Beach and hasn't called in two years. I come here every day because the lake is the only thing that's still honest. It doesn't pretend to be anything it's not. It's cold and it's hard and it doesn't care if you live or die."
The man finally looked at Mike. His eyes were the color of the lake—gray, flat, without depth or surface.
"You a cop?" he asked.
"No."
"Reporter?"
"No."
"Then what are you doing here?"
Mike looked at his hands. His hands were big hands, the hands of a man who had spent twenty-two years carrying a gun and a badge and the weight of everything he had seen. His hands were steady. They had always been steady. That was the problem.
"I'm here," Mike said, "to tell you that things are going to change."
The man laughed. It was a dry sound, like leaves skittering across pavement. "Everything changes, buddy. That's the only thing that doesn't change. Everything changes and you're left standing in the same place wondering where the years went."
Mike reached into his coat.
The man didn't flinch. He just watched Mike's hand with those flat gray eyes and nodded slowly, as if he had expected this exact moment and had been preparing for it since the day his wife died.
Mike pulled out his wallet and looked at it for a second and then put it back.
"Never mind," he said. "Wrong guy."
He turned and walked back to his car. He got in and started the engine and drove away without looking in the rearview mirror.
The phone rang again. He answered on the second ring.
"Target acquired?"
"Negative," Mike said. "Wrong guy."
A pause. "Repeat instruction."
"Tell it to the next one," Mike said, and hung up.
He drove to the second location. A guy sleeping in the garage under the apartment building on East Superior Street. Young. Maybe twenty-five. Addiction had hollowed him out until he was more bone than man.
Mike sat in his car and watched the garage for an hour. The guy came out twice to pee and came back in twice, curling tighter each time like a shrimp in a bed that was too big for him.
Mike's phone rang. "Status?"
"Negative," Mike said. "Wrong guy."
"Third instruction is critical. The third target determines the success of the entire operation. Do not fail."
Mike looked at the apartment building. It was a three-story brick structure with windows that had been boarded up on the first floor and stained with urine on the second. The third floor had curtains. Someone lived there. Someone had curtains.
"I won't fail," Mike said. And he meant it.
The third address was a park in Duluth East. A woman sitting on a bench with a编织袋 at her feet. Sarah. His Sarah. The Sarah who had left him eighteen months ago because he came home from work and sat in the garage for three hours before going inside. The Sarah who had left because he couldn't talk about feelings. The Sarah who had left because he was a cop who had seen too much and could no longer distinguish between the violence he carried home and the violence that was already there, waiting for him in the quiet.
She looked thin. That was the first thing he noticed. Thinner than he remembered. Her face was gaunt, her cheekbones sharp enough to cut. She was wearing his old coat—the navy blue one with the broken zipper that he had given her two Christmases ago and she had never returned.
Mike sat in the car and stared at her through the windshield. The wipers were frozen in the up position, leaving a clean arc across the glass that framed her like a portrait. A portrait of everything he had failed.
His phone rang. He let it ring until it stopped.
He got out of the car and walked toward the bench. The wind was picking up, throwing ice crystals across the path like tiny shards of glass. Sarah didn't look up when he approached. She was staring at the lake, which was the same gray it had always been, indifferent to everything.
"Sarah," he said.
She turned her head slowly. Her eyes were red-rimmed but dry. She had been crying earlier and had stopped. That was Sarah—she didn't waste tears on things that couldn't be changed.
"Mike." Her voice was flat. No anger. No sadness. Just flat, like the lake.
"I didn't know you were on the list."
"The list?" She almost smiled. Almost. "What list?"
"The list of people who need to be removed from the city."
Sarah looked at him for a long time. Then she looked past him, at the car he had driven here in. She looked at the way his hands hung at his sides, the way his shoulders were set, the way his face was a mask of something he couldn't name.
"You're one of them," she said. "The ones they sent."
"Yes."
"And what are you going to do?"
Mike looked at the lake. The ice was cracking again. Somewhere, a gull cried—a sharp, desperate sound that belonged to a world that didn't include men who sat in cars and watched their ex-wives shiver on benches.
"I don't know," he said. And it was the truest thing he had ever said.
Sarah nodded. She pulled her编织袋 closer to her and looked back at the lake. "Well," she said, "I'm not going anywhere. This is my bench. I've been here every day for six months. You can't evict a bench."
Mike stood there for a long time. The wind picked up. The ice cracked. The gull cried again.
Then he turned and walked back to his car. He got in and started the engine and drove to the strip mall on London Road and parked outside the Chinese restaurant and sat there and drank his cold coffee and watched the plywood windows and waited for spring, if spring ever decided to include him.
- Art
- Causes
- Crafts
- Dance
- Drinks
- Film
- Fitness
- Food
- الألعاب
- Gardening
- Health
- الرئيسية
- Literature
- Music
- Networking
- أخرى
- Party
- Religion
- Shopping
- Sports
- Theater
- Wellness