Frank Dvorak had not slept in three days.

He sat on the sofa in his living room, the springs broken and the upholstery torn, and watched the factory through the window. The smokestacks stood in the darkness like black fingers pointing at a sky that had forgotten how to be blue. They had been silent for eleven years, but Frank still expected to hear them. His body woke at six in the morning ready for the shift whistle that would never sound again.

His left hand rested on his knee. The scar from the steel burn was pale now, almost white, a map of a moment when molten metal had splashed across his knuckles in '84. He had been welding a support beam in the assembly line, third shift, when the clamp slipped. The metal had glowed orange, then white, then liquid. It had hit his hand and he had kept welding because the line couldn't stop and if the line stopped they would all get in trouble and Frank didn't want anyone to get in trouble.

Mary had screamed when she saw it. She had screamed and cried and held his hand under cold water for an hour while Frank sat on the kitchen floor and watched the blister form and pop and form again.

Three years later she had left. Not dramatically, not with a suitcase and a slammed door. She had just stopped coming home one night and then the next and then the next, and when Frank had called, she had said "I can't do this alone anymore" in a voice so tired it sounded like she had been carrying something heavy for twenty years and her back had finally given out.

Their daughter Sarah was sixteen now, living with her mother in Ohio, and she called on Sundays and asked Frank if he was seeing a doctor and Frank said no and Sarah said "Dad, you need to" and Frank said "I'm fine" and hung up.

He was not fine.

The dreams had started in January. Or maybe they weren't dreams. That was the problem: Frank couldn't tell the difference anymore.

In the first one, he was back in the factory. Not the empty shell he saw through his window, but the factory as it had been: loud, hot, alive. Workers moved between the machines like dancers in a choreographed routine, sweating and shouting and laughing. Joe Kowalski was there, the guy who had been Frank's partner on the line for twelve years, and Joe was holding a beer and yelling something about the Steelers and Frank couldn't hear him over the sound of the presses but he could see Joe's mouth moving and he could see the friendship in it, the real thing, the kind of thing that doesn't need words.

Frank woke on the sofa with his mouth open and his heart beating fast and the smell of sweat and metal still in his nose. He looked at the clock: 3 AM. He had fallen asleep at maybe midnight. Three hours. In three hours he had lived a whole afternoon in the factory.

He told himself it was just a dream. Just a dream of a man who had spent twenty-three years in a steel mill and missed it even though he would never admit it out loud.

But the next night, he "entered" Mrs. Gable's dream.

Mrs. Gable lived two doors down from Frank, in a small house with a garden that used to be beautiful before her husband died and she got too old to maintain it. She was seventy-two, thin as a rail, with hands that shook when she wasn't holding something steady. Frank knew her because she sometimes brought him soup when Mary had left, the kind of neighbourly thing that people did when they saw a man sitting alone in a broken sofa and knew he used to be part of the community that was now falling apart around him.

Frank fell asleep on the sofa, closed his eyes, and found himself standing in Mrs. Gable's garden. But it wasn't the overgrown, weed-choked garden he saw through her window. It was the garden from forty years ago, when her husband was alive and the roses were blooming and the tomatoes were red and heavy on the vine. Mrs. Gable was younger, maybe thirty, wearing a sunhat and a dress and holding a basket of tomatoes. She was smiling.

"Frank," she said. "Come help me with these. Your mother used to help me pick them."

His mother had been dead ten years. But in the dream, she was there too, standing by the fence, wiping her hands on an apron, nodding at him the way mothers nod when they want you to know they're proud but they don't want to make a big deal out of it.

Frank picked tomatoes with them until the basket was full and the sun went down and he woke up on the sofa with dirt under his fingernails.

He washed his hands in the kitchen sink and the dirt came off but the feeling didn't. The feeling of his mother's hand on his shoulder. The feeling of a garden that wasn't dead. The feeling of a world where things still grew.

He went back to the sofa and sat in the dark and waited for morning.

Sarah called on Sunday. "Dad, are you eating?"

"Yeah."

"You sound tired."

"I'm fine."

"Dad, you should see a doctor."

"I don't need a doctor."

"You haven't slept in weeks. I can hear it in your voice."

"I don't need—"

"Dad. Please. Just go to the clinic. Just once."

He hung up.

The community clinic was in a strip mall next to a laundromat and a pawn shop. Frank waited in the waiting room for forty-five minutes, reading magazines from 2016, watching other people who looked like him: tired, worn down, holding their bodies the way you hold a car that's about to fall apart.

The doctor was young. Too young to remember when the factory was running. He had a warm face and a warm voice and the kind of optimism that comes from having never lost a job to overseas competition.

"So, Frank," he said, looking at the chart. "Mrs. Alvarez at the grocery store told me you've been having trouble sleeping."

"I haven't been having trouble sleeping," Frank said. "I've been not sleeping."

"That's the same thing."

"No. That's not the same thing. Sleeping is something you do. Not sleeping is something that happens to you."

The doctor wrote something on his prescription pad. Frank didn't ask what.

"Try this," the doctor said, handing him the pad. "It'll help you sleep through the night. Take one pill at bedtime. Don't drive if you feel drowsy. And Frank—come back if it doesn't help. We can try something else."

Frank took the pill home and looked at it in his palm. A small white circle. A small white solution to a big black problem.

He took it for three days.

On the third night, he slept. Not the fragmented, haunted sleep he was used to, but deep, dreamless, black sleep. The kind of sleep that feels like death and wishes it had a name.

And he hated it.

Because those dreams—the factory, Mrs. Gable's garden, his mother's kitchen—they weren't real, maybe. But they were the only things left in his life that felt warm. The pill had taken them away. It had given him nothing in return: no sleep, no peace, just the absence of the only things that had kept him from sitting in the dark and staring at the smokestacks until his eyes gave out.

He stopped taking the pills.

He went back to the sofa. He went back to the factory in his sleep. He went back to the garden and the tomatoes and his mother's hand on his shoulder.

And he went back to sitting in the living room during the day, watching the smokestacks, waiting for something that wasn't coming.

One morning, he put on his work boots and his old factory jacket—the one with the name patch that said DVORAK on the back—and walked to the steel mill.

The gate was locked. The parking lot was filled with weeds. The building itself was a shell, windows broken, walls covered in graffiti, the great doors hanging open like a mouth with no teeth.

Frank walked inside.

The assembly line was still there, covered in rust and bird droppings, but it was there. The welding station where he had burned his hand. The clamp that had slipped. The support beam that had held or hadn't held, it didn't matter anymore. The bench where he had eaten his lunch break a thousand times, sitting next to Joe Kowalski, talking about nothing and everything.

Frank stood in the middle of the车间 for two hours.

He didn't cry. He didn't yell. He didn't do anything dramatic. He just stood there, in the place that had been his life for twenty-three years, and he let the silence fill him up the way the dreams used to.

Then he walked out, went home, sat on the broken sofa, and closed his eyes.

And waited to see what he would find next.

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