The rain in Los Angeles doesn't wash things clean. It just makes the grime glisten.

Veronica Marsh sat in her studio apartment in Echo Park and counted the reasons she was leaving. She had written them on the back of an envelope, because that's what you do when your life has been reduced to the space behind a piece of mail.

Reason one: He had never introduced her to his mother. Reason two: He had introduced her to his mother's lawyer. Reason three: She had spent seven years learning the difference between the man he was when the apartment was dark and the man he was in daylight. The difference was not philosophical. It was not psychological. It was simply that one of them was real and the other was a costume he wore for people who expected costumes. Reason four: The apartment he owned had two bedrooms and a study, and she had slept in the study for five of those seven years—not because he had asked her to, but because the distance between their beds had become a geography she could no longer navigate.

The phone rang. She let it ring until it stopped. Then she started packing.

She had come to Los Angeles from Seattle seven years ago, drawn by the promise of film—real film, celluloid and projectors and the alchemy of light passing through a lens to create the illusion of life. She had a degree from USC, a reel that had gotten her meetings with three producers, and a man who told her she was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen while they were having sex and meant it for exactly the four seconds it took him to say it.

Daniel Cross was forty-one, which made him thirty-four in the way that mattered in Los Angeles: old enough to have money, young enough to still want to spend it on someone who looked like Veronica, talented enough in the way that counted most in this town to have connections.

He was a production executive at a studio that existed primarily to produce other people's ambitions. His job was to read scripts, attend screenings, and tell creative people what they needed to hear so they would keep making movies that made other people money.

Veronica had been his "creative consultant" for three years. That was the word he used. Consultant. As if she consulted on anything other than the shape of his loneliness.

The other woman's name was Genevieve Laurent. She was French, which in Los Angeles meant she was either actually from France or very good at pretending to be, and Veronica had spent six months trying to figure out which. It turned out to be both, which was the kind of detail that made the situation infinitely more humiliating.

Genevieve came to the studio on a Tuesday. Veronica was in her office—actually her office this time, not the desk Daniel had cleared out for her in his own corridor—when the secretary called to say there was a visitor.

"Tell her I'm busy," Veronica said.

"She said she's Daniel's—"

"Tell him I'm in a meeting."

The visitor waited in the lobby for exactly forty minutes. Veronica watched her from the glass wall of her office, watching her watch the ceiling, the art, the receptionist, every reflection in the polished marble floor. She was beautiful in the way that made Veronica's jaw ache with envy: sharp cheekbones, dark hair cut into a shape that said: I don't need a stylist, I am a stylist.

When Veronica finally went down, Genevieve was still there. She had not moved from the chair by the window, the one where the afternoon light fell across her face in a way that made even the fluorescent lobby lights look generous.

"You're her," Veronica said.

"You're hers," Genevieve replied.

They looked at each other the way two women look at each other when the man between them has stopped being a person and become a ledger.

"She doesn't love you," Veronica said. It wasn't cruel. It was a fact, like stating the temperature.

"She doesn't love you either," Genevieve said.

They were both right. The cruel part was that they both knew it.

Veronica left Los Angeles on a Thursday. She didn't tell Daniel. She didn't need to—he would have noticed eventually, the way you notice that a piece of furniture has been moved from one side of a room to the other. You don't notice the absence of something that was never in the room to begin with.

She drove north on the 5, past the sprawl and the smog and the strip malls that stretched out like concrete prayer rugs, each one asking for something different and none of them knowing what they were asking for.

At the rest stop outside Bakersfield, she parked and sat in the dark for twenty minutes, listening to the engine tick as it cooled. The radio was off. The phone was off. For the first time in seven years, Veronica Marsh was a person who could not be reached.

She started the car. She kept driving.

The last thing she saw in her rearview mirror was the Los Angeles basin, glowing orange and uncertain, a city that ran on the hope that tomorrow someone would finally see you the way you wanted to be seen.

She turned off the rearview mirror and watched only the road ahead.

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