Neon and Shadows
I
The rain in Los Angeles doesn't wash anything clean. It just makes the dirt slicker. I knew this because I'd been standing outside the Spanish villa in the Hollywood Hills for forty minutes, watching water sheet off the terracotta tiles and pool in the driveway where some starlet's Cadillac had been parked three days ago.
The villa was exactly what you'd expect: white stucco, wrought iron, a fountain that had stopped working sometime during Hoover's first term. Inside, according to the file Krendler had slid across my desk, lived a man called Dr. Marcus Thorne. Former psychiatrist. Disbarred. Suspected of crossing professional boundaries with at least three patients during his tenure at a VA hospital in San Diego.
"Crossing boundaries," Krendler had said, tasting the words like bad wine. "That's gentle language, Vasquez. What he did was dangerous. We need him in New York. Alive."
I'd asked what happened if he wasn't. Krendler had smiled the way politicians smile when they want you to think they're joking. "Then you'll have to explain to me why you didn't make sure he was."
II
Thorne answered the door before I could knock. He was taller than his file suggested, with the kind of hands that look like they've played piano—long fingers, clean nails, a scar across the knuckle of the right index finger that looked old and deliberate. He wore a silk robe the color of dried blood and held a glass of something amber that I assumed was whiskey and not the bootleg stuff the prohibition agents kept seizing in warehouses down by the port.
"Agent Vasquez," he said. Not a question. "Come in. You're letting the rain in."
The interior was a contradiction: spartan furniture in a room decorated like a museum. A single painting on the wall—Munch's The Scream, a print but a good one. A grand piano in the corner, lid closed, covered with sheet music. No personal effects. No photographs. No life.
"You know who I am."
"I know who you are, Rita Vasquez. Former war correspondent. Covered the Argonne. Saw things that made you stop believing in poetry. Then you picked up a badge instead of a notebook. FBI, Behavioral Analysis Division. You're twenty-nine years old and you've already killed three men in the line of duty. Two were suspects. One was an innocent bystander who happened to be standing in the wrong place at the wrong time with a wallet that looked like a gun."
I didn't move. My hand stayed near my pocket where my service revolver rested against my ribs. "How do you know that?"
"Because I read everything. That's what I do. I read people." Thorne set his glass down on a side table and gestured to a chair. "Please. Sit. I promise I'm more interesting standing up, but I understand the protocol."
I sat. He poured a second glass of whiskey and set it on the table beside me. The glass was full. I didn't touch it.
"Dr. Thorne, I'm here about the complaint filed against you. Three patients. Alleged inappropriate relationships."
He laughed, and it was a dry, humorless sound. "Inappropriate. That's the word the board used. Not illegal. Not criminal. Inappropriate. As if I kissed them. Or touched them in ways I shouldn't have." He paused. "I did touch them, Agent Vasquez. I held their hands while they cried. I sat with them in the dark when the nightmares came. Is that inappropriate for a man whose job is to sit in the dark with other people?"
III
The name Callahan first appeared in Thorne's file as a footnote: LAPD, Detective Frank Callahan, assigned to the Hollywood division. No complaints. No record of corruption. Just a name that kept surfacing in connection with Thorne's patients.
I found Callahan at a diner on Sunset Boulevard, eating pie and reading a newspaper that was two days old. He was a medium man in a medium suit with a face that looked like it had been carved from ham. When he saw me, he folded the newspaper and smiled.
"Agent Vasquez. I wondered when you'd show up."
"I wondered the same thing, Detective."
He was right about one thing: I had wondered. Callahan had been circling Thorne for months, and I'd been too busy with other cases to connect the dots. Now the dots were connecting themselves, and they formed a picture I didn't like.
"What do you know about Dr. Thorne?" I asked.
"I know he's a brilliant man who plays God with people's minds." Callahan took a bite of pie and chewed slowly. "I know he's got secrets. Big ones. And I know a man named Krendler in Washington who would pay good money for those secrets."
"Krendler sent you?"
"Krendler sends a lot of people. I'm just the one who lives here." He leaned forward. "Here's what you need to understand, Agent. Thorne isn't your run-of-the-mill disgraced doctor. He knows things. About people. About how the mind works. And in the wrong hands—say, the hands of a man like Krendler—that knowledge is a weapon."
"What kind of knowledge?"
Callahan's smile widened. "Ask him yourself. But be careful, Rita. Some doors, once opened, can't be closed."
IV
The photography studio on Sunset was abandoned, a relic from the silent film era with a sign that still read GLOBE PICTURES in flickering neon letters. I arrived at midnight, alone, carrying my revolver and Callahan's warning like a stone in my stomach.
Thorne was waiting for me in the dark, sitting in what had once been an audience of film extras. Fifty velvet chairs faced a empty stage, and above us, the neon sign buzzed like an angry insect.
"You came alone," he said.
"That's the point."
He was right. I had come alone. No backup, no warrant, no plan beyond walking through a dark door and hoping I walked back out. It was either brave or stupid. I hadn't decided which.
"Thorne, I need to know—what does Krendler want?"
"Everything." Thorne's voice was calm, almost gentle in the dark. "My research. My notes. My theory of memory. He wants to own it, Rita. He wants to build a system where the government can reach into your mind and rearrange the furniture while you sleep. Is that the America you signed up to protect?"
I didn't answer. The question was too big for a diner conversation, let alone an abandoned studio at midnight.
"There's something else," Thorne said. "Something you need to see."
He clicked on a small flashlight and pointed it at the stage. On the floor, arranged in a neat circle, were dozens of photographs. Black and white portraits of men and women, each one labeled with a name and a date. I recognized half of them from Thorne's file—the "patients" who had allegedly had inappropriate relationships with him.
"They're not patients," Thorne said. "They were witnesses. People who saw things they shouldn't have. Krendler used my techniques to make them forget. Not all of it—just enough. Enough to make them unreliable. Enough to make them disappear."
He picked up one photograph—a young woman with dark eyes and a smile that didn't reach them. "This is Dorothy Hale. She was going to publish a story about Krendler's dealings with European intelligence. After our sessions, she remembered nothing. Not the story. Not her own name, sometimes. She's in a sanatorium in Pasadena now. Krendler visits her every Tuesday."
"Why are you showing me this?"
"Because you're standing at a crossroads, Agent Vasquez. You can arrest me—the easy thing, the thing your training tells you to do. Or you can listen to a man who is trying to stop something worse than himself from happening."
V
I made my choice at 3:17 in the morning, standing in the neon-lit darkness of an abandoned studio with a broken man's photographs at my feet and a government that had forgotten what justice meant.
I destroyed the warrant.
Not literally—I couldn't have destroyed a federal document if I'd tried. But I made a choice that was functionally equivalent. I didn't file it. I didn't execute it. I walked out of that studio and I didn't look back.
Thorne disappeared three days later. His villa was empty, the piano gone, the Munch print slashed down the center. Krendler issued a statement claiming that Thorne had been "taken into federal custody for his own protection." The newspapers printed it. The public believed it.
I sat in a二十四-hour diner on Hollywood Boulevard and watched the rain turn the neon reflections on the street into liquid color. I thought about Dorothy Hale in her Pasadena sanatorium. I thought about Krendler, who would keep building his system of controlled forgetting. I thought about Thorne, somewhere in the world, carrying his theory of memory in a canvas bag.
I didn't know if I'd made the right choice. I didn't know if right choices still existed in a city built on forgetting.
But I knew this: in the morning, the neon would still be on. The rain would still fall. And somewhere, a man with a theory about memory would be rebuilding what the government had broken.
That had to be enough.
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