The Agreement

I notice Kate for the first time on a Tuesday in March. She arrives at the shared cafeteria at the same time she arrives every morning: 8 15 AM. She eats a granola bar and drinks black coffee. She looks tired. I notice her because I am looking. I am always looking. There are worse things to be good at, but I am not sure this counts.

I work on the fourth floor of this beige building in the International District. There is a coffee shop and a dry cleaner on the ground floor. Second floor: a memorial services company where Kate Sullivan works. She designs bronze plaques with names and dates. Her job is tedious but requires precision, which is what most jobs require: the ability to do something tedious with precision for eight hours a day and then come back and do it again. Third floor: the county medical examiner's satellite office where Dr. James McAllister works. He is one of six pathologists doing autopsies for the city. Fifth through seventh: small businesses that pay rent and hope for the best. Between the building and the adjacent structure is a shared courtyard with a bench, a tree that loses its leaves every November and grows them back every April, and a water fountain that does not work. The rain in Seattle is always slightly raining. Not dramatic rain. The kind of rain that makes you question whether you are alive or just slowly dissolving.

I notice James too. He arrives at 7 45, drinks espresso, reads a medical journal at the table next to Kate's. They do not speak. I notice this because I notice things. I have nothing better to do. I am a paralegal at a modest immigration law firm. I process documents and file papers and occasionally type things I will not show anyone because typing is the only thing that makes me feel connected to the world.

I do not know why I am tracking this. I do not ask myself.

One morning, Kate does not appear. I notice. This is strange. She arrives at 8 15 every morning. She does not miss a day. When she returns two days later, there is a bruise on her cheek. She says she fell down the stairs. I know she did not fall down the stairs because I saw her walking perfectly fine the day before. I do not correct her. I have learned that correction is a form of violence.

Two weeks later, Kate and James are seen leaving King County courthouse together, holding hands. No one announces anything. I am looking out the window when I see it. The sky is gray and the rain is slightly raining and everything looks the same as it always looks and nothing looks the same at all. I go back to my desk and type a sentence I will not show anyone: They got married.

Kate's desk on the second floor is partially cleared. Personal effects removed: a mug, a framed photo, a small potted succulent. James's coffee cup changes: he was drinking black espresso. Now he drinks latte with oat milk. I do not understand why this matters. It matters. I do not know why I know this. I just do.

I ask a coworker: Who did Kate marry? Coworker: Some doctor. From the third floor. Did not you know? I say: No. I did not. I did not know. I am good at not knowing things. It is a skill.

Kate returns to work looking different somehow. Lighter. Heavier. I cannot say. The word different is the only tool I have. Different is a word that does nothing. It describes without describing, observes without observing, knows without knowing.

James and Kate are seen together in the elevator. They stand next to each other and do not speak. The elevator goes up and down. The doors open and close. I watch through the window from the third floor landing when I step out for a break. There is a sticky note on James's computer that I cannot read from my desk. I know there is a sticky note because I have seen him look at it. It has a name written on it in handwriting I cannot read. I wonder if it is her name. I do not want to know.

Diane Park begins appearing at the cafeteria with James. She sits across from Kate. Diane is a real estate developer, owns three buildings in Capitol Hill, grew up with James, went to the same Catholic school, shared a brief romance in high school that neither liked at the time but both pretend was significant now. Diane's conversations are loud. Kate's are quiet. I watch through the window.

One afternoon, Diane says something to Kate that makes Kate's face go still. I see the stillness but cannot hear the words. I wish I could hear the words. I wish I could do anything other than watch. I wish I were someone who did things instead of watching them. But I am not. I am someone who watches. It is what I am.

I learn the truth indirectly. James and Kate's marriage is a contract. Separate bedrooms. Separate lives. A performance for parents and in laws. I write this down not because it is interesting but because it is true. Kate's parents are pushing her. She is twenty nine and past prime, as her mother says at Thanksgiving. James's parents live in Olympia and call every Sunday. They want grandchildren. They want him to be happy. They do not know which is more important to him. I have never had parents who called me on Sundays. It seems like a good thing and a terrible thing.

Brett Calloway is seen at the coffee shop on the ground floor, buying two coffees. One for him, one for the assistant. He is Kate's ex. He was a software engineer. Not a bad man. Just mediocre. He loved Kate in the way that many mediocre people love: comfortably, without attention, assuming she would always be there. He does not look happy. He does not look unhappy. He looks like a man going through the motions. I know what that looks like. I look like that in the mirror some mornings.

James is seen leaving the hospital with a woman I do not recognize. They are walking close together. The woman's hand is on James's arm.

I piece it together. James is having an affair. Not with Diane. With a nurse at the hospital. A woman named Laura whose name I learn because Laura comes to the cafeteria occasionally, and I recognize her from the third floor. She has kind eyes and tired hands. She smokes in the courtyard. I approach her one day. We do not speak. She sees me watching, puts out her cigarette, and leaves. She does not run. She walks. I admire that.

Kate knows. I see it in the way Kate looks at her phone. In the way she stops eating granola bars and starts eating sandwiches from the deli downstairs. In the way she and James stop making eye contact in the elevator. Kate looks at her phone with an expression I have seen on faces before: the face of someone who has already seen the thing and wishes they had not.

I consider telling Kate. I do not. I am a bystander. Bystanders do not intervene. I have read about this. In books. In real life it is less noble and more cowardly.

James and Kate have an argument in the elevator. I hear it. It is quiet but intense. Kate says: You promised. James says: I did not promise anything. We agreed to something different. The doors open. They separate. Neither looks at the other. I stand in the elevator with them for half a second and then I get off one floor early because I want a moment alone with the thing I just heard.

Diane visits James at work one more time. This time she brings a box. It contains a photo album. James does not take it. Diane leaves it on his desk. She does not come back. The photo album sits there for three days. Then it is gone. I do not know who took it.

Kate stops coming to the cafeteria. James starts coming to the cafeteria. He sits at Kate's old table. He orders oat milk latte. He reads a medical journal. He looks at the window. He looks at the courtyard. The courtyard is wet and the bench is empty and the tree is losing its leaves and the water fountain does not work. These things do not change. I notice them because I notice things.

I look up the statistics. The divorce rate in Seattle is forty two percent. The percentage of contract marriages is unknown. No one tracks this. The percentage of people in Seattle who feel profoundly lonely is sixty seven percent. I write these numbers down on a yellow pad and then I look at them and I put the yellow pad in my desk drawer and I do not show them to anyone.

Kate's desk is empty one Monday. She does not return. Her supervisor says she took a leave of absence. No one asks for details. Nobody asks for anything. That is the thing about Seattle. Nobody asks.

James is seen in the courtyard, sitting on the bench next to the tree that is losing its leaves. He is not reading. He is not drinking coffee. He is just sitting. I watch from the window. The rain is still slightly raining. It always is.

I think this is what love is, maybe. Or maybe it is nothing. I am not sure. I go home. I eat dinner alone. I watch television. The rain continues. The water fountain still does not work. The tree loses its leaves and grows them back and loses them again. I go home and eat dinner alone and watch television and the rain continues. I notice this. I always notice.

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