The Campus Immune System
Dr. Amir Rashidi did not notice it at first. It was slow, and slowness is the primary characteristic of any biological process, and if you are looking for something dramatic, you will miss the slow things until they are too large to miss.
He was thirty-nine years old, a professor of Middle Eastern studies at a small liberal arts college in Wisconsin, and he had been teaching for twelve years. He was Iranian-American, born in Tehran before the revolution, brought to the United States by his father when he was six years old, and educated entirely in America: public schools in Michigan, undergraduate at University of Michigan, graduate school at UCLA, and he spoke English without an accent, which was both an advantage and a disadvantage that he was still learning to navigate at thirty-nine years old, and which meant that whenever someone discovered he was not American, the assumption of Americanness became a betrayal that he would spend the rest of his career trying to repair. He spoke English without an accent, which was both an advantage and a disadvantage. The advantage was that people assumed he was American. The disadvantage was that when they discovered he was not, the assumption of Americanness became a betrayal.
The college was in a town called Oakridge, population twelve thousand, population declining since the textile mill closed in 1978, and the community was the kind of place where everyone knew everyone and everyone knew everyone else's business and everyone agreed about most things except the things that mattered.
Amir had been hired in 2003, and the hiring had been celebrated by the department chair as a step toward diversity, which was true but incomplete. He was not hired for his diversity. He was hired because he was a good scholar of contemporary Iranian literature and politics, and the department needed someone who taught that subject. But the diversity framing had set a tone that Amir would spend the next two years trying to navigate without resigning.
The first sign was small. A student in his introductory course on Middle Eastern politics raised her hand during a discussion of the 1953 coup and asked, in a tone that was polite but unmistakable, whether Amir's perspective on the coup could be considered objective, given his personal history. She did not say his history made him biased. She said it made his perspective interesting, which was a way of saying he was not qualified.
The second sign was a phone call from the dean, a pleasant woman named Patricia who had been at the college for twenty years and who had never had a colleague who was not white, who called to ask, in a tone of gentle concern, whether Amir felt comfortable teaching a course that dealt with terrorism, because some members of the community had expressed concerns.
"I am teaching about a historical coup," Amir said. "Not terrorism."
"I understand," Patricia said. "But perception is important."
The third sign was the email. It came from an address that was clearly fake, and it was addressed to the entire department, and it was about fifteen hundred words long, and it was a detailed account of Amir's "political activities" that ranged from suspicious to impossible to verifiable, and it was signed with a name that was not a name but a collection of letters that were meant to look like a name but were not. Amir forwarded it to campus security and to Patricia and to his own attorney, who was his father, who lived three hours away in Detroit and who read the email and said: "They are scared. Scared people write emails like this. Do not respond. Continue teaching."
But the email was not the immune response. It was the fever. The immune response was the thing that happened after the fever, when the body decided that the infection was not something to fight but something to isolate.
It happened gradually. Students who had enrolled in his courses dropped them, one by one, over the spring semester, until his class sizes had been cut in half and the department, which operated on the assumption that class sizes were stable, had to find money elsewhere to pay for the seats that Amir was no longer filling. Colleagues who had been friendly in the abstract—polite greetings in the hallway, nods at department meetings—stopped greeting him and stopped nodding. The grad students who had been eager to work with him, fascinated by his expertise on contemporary Iranian politics, found other advisors, citing scheduling conflicts that were not conflicts, because Amir's office hours were the same as everyone else's and the only thing that had changed was their willingness to be seen walking to his office.
Amir understood what was happening. The college was a social organism, and he was the antigen, and the organism was mounting a slow, polite, entirely non-violent immune response that was designed not to attack him but to isolate him, to wall him off, to make him irrelevant, to make his presence structurally unnecessary until the antigen was naturally cleared from the system by the normal processes of hiring cycles and contract renewals and the slow, indifferent process of academic tenure decisions.
He was up for tenure in two years. If he got tenure, the immune response would stop. The organism would accept him as part of its body. If he did not get tenure, the immune response would have succeeded, and he would leave, and the college would forget he had ever existed.
He spent his days teaching the students who remained, grading their papers, office-houring the three students who still came, writing his books, eating lunch alone in the faculty dining room while watching the other faculty members talk in groups that he had not been invited to and did not want to join, and he thought about免疫 systems and about how they work: they distinguish self from non-self, and when they encounter non-self, they do not always attack. Sometimes they tolerate. Sometimes they isolate. Sometimes they wait for the non-self to go away.
The isolation was not hostile. It was not rude. It was not the kind of thing that could be reported to HR or challenged in a grievance procedure. It was the slow, polite withdrawal of a community that had decided, without meeting and without voting and without anyone saying the words out loud, that Dr. Amir Rashidi was not one of them, and that the most respectful way to handle the situation was to make him unnecessary.
His father called him on a Sunday evening, the way he always did, and asked how the teaching was going, and Amir said it was going well, which was a lie, and his father said, "Your mother is worried. She wants to come visit."
"Tell her not to," Amir said. "She would not like it here."
"It is a small town," his father said. "Small towns can be difficult."
"Not difficult," Amir said. "Polite. That is worse. If they were rude, I would know where I stood. But they are polite. They nod at me in the hallway and say hello and ask how my weekend was and then they forget I exist the moment they turn away. Politeness is the immune system's way of saying: you are not dangerous. You are not us. Please remain not us."
His father was silent for a moment. "When you were six years old," he said, "we left Tehran because the world decided you were not Iranian anymore. You were Iranian-American. Which in Tehran meant you were American. Which meant you were the enemy. We came to America because the world decided you were American. Which in America means you are one of us. But you are not. You are Amir. And Amir is not American and he is not Iranian. He is Amir. And Amirs do not always have a place."
Amir sat in his office, looking out at the Wisconsin landscape, which was green and flat and unfamiliar, and he thought about his father's words and about the immune system and about the slow, polite isolation that was happening around him, and he understood that he was living his father's life, only in a different country and with different words.
He made a decision. He would not fight the immune response. He would not demand acceptance. He would not try to change the community's mind. He would do what免疫 systems do when they encounter a persistent non-self antigen that they cannot clear: they adapt. They create a space for it. They wall it off and let it exist in its own compartment, separate from the rest of the body, neither attacking nor accepting, just containing.
He would build his own compartment. He would teach his courses well. He would write his books well. He would be Amir, not American and not Iranian, but Amir, and he would find the other Amirs in the community and in the college and outside them, and he would build a network of people who were also not-one-thing, who were also contained by polite isolation, and together they would form a compartment that was separate from the college but not subordinate to it, a space where Amirs could exist without being accepted or rejected by the organism that had created them and then decided they did not belong.
It was not a heroic decision. It was not dramatic. It was the slow, patient adaptation of a man who understood that免疫 systems do not hate antigens. They simply do not know what to do with them, so they isolate them and wait and hope that time will resolve the problem.
But Amir knew that time does not resolve problems. Time contains them. And containing is its own kind of survival.
He closed his office door, turned off the light, and walked out into the hallway, where a colleague nodded at him and said hello and asked how his weekend was, and Amir said it was good, and the colleague smiled and walked away and forgot he existed, and Amir walked to his car and drove home through the streets of Oakridge, Wisconsin, a town of twelve thousand people and one immune system and one antigen that was learning, slowly and patiently, how to survive isolation and how to build something new from the space that isolation had carved out inside him.
On the drive home, he passed a small grocery store with a sign in Persian: Tehran Market. He stopped and went inside and bought pomegranates and bread and stood in the checkout line next to a woman who looked like she was from somewhere he recognized but could not place, and when she smiled at him and he smiled back, they both knew, without speaking, that they were from the same place, the place that was not America and not Iran but somewhere in between, and that the pomegranates in her bag and the pomegranates in his were the same fruit, grown in the same soil, carrying the same sweet-red secrets, and that in this town of twelve thousand people where he was being slowly, politely, perfectly isolated by an immune system that did not hate him but simply did not know what to do with him, the pomegranate was its own kind of network, its own kind of hub, its own kind of resistance: small, red, and impossible to ignore.
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