Sweet Deception

Summer was crying again. Not the polite, dignified crying of people who want you to know they are upset without requiring anything from you. No, Summer was doing the full work—the loud snotty crying, the kind that announces itself to the entire apartment building and makes the neighbours wonder whether someone is being murdered or simply breaking up, which in Los Angeles is basically the same thing.

I stood in the doorway of Summer's new apartment—her cousin's new apartment, though calling us cousins does a lot of familial work that our actual family tree refuses to do—and watched her sit on the floor of an empty living room surrounded by cardboard boxes, weeping into a pillow that still smelled like the Target return bin.

"It's been three days, Chelsea," she wailed, which was an exaggeration. It had been two days and six hours, but Summer had never been particularly committed to accuracy when accuracy served her narrative. "He said I need to find someone who's a better match for my body type. My body type. As if I'm a font choice. As if Tyler looked at me and thought, hmm, this woman is lovely but the kerning is all wrong."

I walked over, dropped my keys on the only piece of furniture Summer had bothered to unpack—a wobbly kitchen table I'd bought off Craigslist—and slid down the wall to sit beside her. I put my arm around her shoulders because she was my cousin's kid, basically, and also because she was my favourite person to love and my second favourite person to roll my eyes at.

"Tyler didn't say your body type was the wrong font," I said. "He said he met someone and he's feeling a connection. Which is code for he met a woman ten years younger who does CrossFit and doesn't eat carbs. But I hear what you're saying. Being told you're a mismatch is like being returned at a department store."

Summer sniffled. "I loved him, Chelsea. For two years I loved him with the kind of love that makes you write terrible poetry and send him songs at 2 AM."

"And he loved you with the kind of love that makes him look at you and see a very nice person whom he would like to be friends with and possibly share a pizza with on Friday nights if nothing more exciting is happening."

That got a wet laugh out of Summer. Wet laughs are Summer's speciality—they're halfway between crying and actual happiness and they always make me feel like I've just witnessed a weather event.

"You're awful," Summer said affectionately.

"I'm accurate," I corrected. "There's a difference. Awful people don't help you move on a Saturday. Accurate people do, because accuracy is its own form of kindness, even when it tastes like lemon juice."

Summer leaned her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. The apartment was quiet except for the sound of LA traffic bleeding through the thin walls—the eternal, low-grade hum of a city that was always moving but never going anywhere. I thought about how Summer and I were both the kind of women that Los Angeles does not know what to do with. Summer was twenty-five and full-figured and sweet in a way that felt almost anachronistic, like a Norman Rockwell painting that had wandered off the canvas and found itself in the 21st century. I was twenty-eight and too observant for my own good, the kind of woman who notices things and files them away and uses them as ammunition later. We were both too much and not enough, in a city that had perfected the art of being just enough without being too much.

The doorbell rang. Summer lifted her head with the sort of tragic reluctance that suggests she was hoping I'd gone away and left her in peace.

"That's probably your Thai food," I said, though I was fairly certain we hadn't ordered Thai food.

"I didn't order food."

"Then it's your Thai food."

I got up and opened the door. The man standing in the hallway was holding a box of records and looking at me with the kind of expression that said he had already decided I was not going to be helpful. He was tall—actually, he was very tall, the kind of tall that makes doorways feel like insults. He was handsome in the way that architects are handsome: all clean lines and confident angles, with a face that suggested he designed buildings the way other men designed their expressions. His hair was dark and precisely cut, his jaw was precise, and his eyes were a grey so clear they looked like they'd been filtered through something expensive.

"I'm looking for Summer Adams," he said. His voice was warm but not overly so—the kind of voice that suggests warmth is a choice rather than a reflex.

"That's me," Summer said, appearing at my elbow in a way that made me aware, as it always did, of how much larger she was than me. Summer was the kind of woman who occupied space with absolute conviction, and I loved her for it. "Can I help you?"

"I'm sorry to bother you," the man said, and I noticed that he said it differently than most men do. Most men apologize like they're apologizing to a building they've accidentally bumped into. This man apologized like he was genuinely sorry, like the bothering was a real harm he wanted to avoid. "I just moved into the apartment next door. I brought you some records as a neighbourly introduction. I thought you might appreciate them."

He held up the box. Inside I could see a few vinyl records—Joni Mitchell, Bill Evans, maybe a bit of Nina Simone. The kind of records that someone chooses carefully, the kind of music that suggests a man who listens rather than simply plays things in the background while pretending to work.

Summer looked at the records, then at him, then at me, with the kind of expression that suggests she is simultaneously grateful, suspicious, and deeply intrigued. "That's very sweet," she said. "Thank you."

"I'm Jack," he said. "Jack Mercer. I'm an architect."

"Summer," she said, taking the box with both hands like he'd handed her something fragile, which he probably had. Vinly records are fragile, but the gesture of handing them felt fragile too.

"Jack Mercer," I repeated, because I'm the kind of person who repeats names as a way of filing them away. "That's a nice name. Mercer. It sounds like someone who sells fine fabrics or runs a museum."

Jack Mercer looked at me, and for the first time since he'd walked in, I saw something flicker across his face. Not warmth—not the kind of warmth Summer had described in Tyler, which was the kind of warmth you see in a room full of radiators—but something sharper. Something that looked like amusement, or possibly recognition.

"And you are?" he asked.

"Chelsea. I'm Summer's cousin. Basically her guardian angel. Currently on break because guardian angels are not allowed to intervene on Saturdays, apparently."

Jack's mouth twitched. It was barely a smile, but in a man like Jack Mercer—a man whose face was all controlled architecture—it was an earthquake.

"I should let you settle in," I said, stepping backward and closing the door with the kind of theatrical finality that makes people think I've done this a thousand times, which I have.

That night, after Summer had stopped crying and started cataloguing the records Jack had brought—Joni Mitchell's Blue, Bill Evans' Sunday at the Village Vanguard, Nina Simone's First Lady of Soul—I sat on my couch with a glass of wine and thought about what it meant to be someone's neighbour.

Summer told me the next morning that she and Jack had talked for two hours through her doorway. Two hours. Summer, who had spent three days in bed thinking about Tyler. Jack, who had just moved into a new building and could have been unpacking. Instead, he was standing in a hallway talking to the woman who lived next door about jazz records and the particular loneliness of moving to a city where everyone is surrounded by other people and no one is actually near you.

"He's different from Tyler," Summer told me over coffee, her eyes wide with the kind of wonder that makes me simultaneously happy for her and deeply cynical about the nature of male attention. "Tyler was warm to everyone. It was like being loved by a central heating system. Jack... Jack is warm to me. I can tell. He asked me specific questions. He remembered things I told him yesterday. He didn't try to make everyone in the room feel included. He just made me feel included."

I studied her over the rim of my coffee cup. Summer was the kind of woman who loved with her whole body, who threw herself at people the way she threw herself at desserts—with a complete absence of restraint and a complete confidence that life would be better if you just committed fully. And I was the kind of woman who watched. Always watched. I was the narrator in my own life, the observer, the one who filed everything away and analysed it later and used it as data for the next observation.

"Maybe," I said carefully. "Or maybe he's just better at it."

Summer looked at me with that wide, unguarded expression that made me want to both protect her and shake her. "You're impossible, you know that?"

"I'm accurate," I repeated, and took another sip of coffee, and filed away the memory of Jack Mercer standing in the hallway—tall, precise, and looking at my cousin the way a man looks at something he has been searching for without quite knowing he was searching.

Because here's the thing about being an observer: you see everything, but you never participate. You watch Summer fall in love the way a film critic watches a romance—appreciating the craft, noting the timing of the emotional beats, analysing the way the lighting falls on the actor's face. But you don't feel the kiss. You don't get the heartbreak. You just sit in the dark with your notebook and your cynicism and your uncanny ability to describe exactly what is happening without ever being part of it.

But Jack Mercer had looked at me. Just for a second, when he was saying goodbye at Summer's door, he had looked at me with the same sharp, specific attention he'd given Summer, and I had felt something crack open in the careful architecture of my own observation.

I had spent twenty-eight years being the person who watched, analysed, and never acted. And Jack Mercer, a man I had met for exactly four minutes in a hallway, had managed to do something that Tyler never had, something that every man I'd ever loved had failed to do: he had made me feel seen. Not as Summer's guardian angel, not as the accurate cousin, not as the observant one who lived behind a wall of analysis and irony.

He had made me feel seen, and the terrifying thing was that I wanted, more than I had wanted anything in my entire carefully documented life, to be seen by him again.

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