I keep a spreadsheet.
Not metaphorically. Not poetically. I keep a spreadsheet. It is hosted on a local server in a renovated bank vault on Spruce Street that was my office when Aegis Therapeutics was a real company and my cubicle when it was a memory and now it is something else again: the command center of a five-block territory that I call The Consulate, though nobody calls it that to my face. They call it Cross's. Which is accurate. I am Cross. Julian Cross. Forty-seven years old, six feet even, 185 pounds, with a heart rate that has never exceeded 72 during a crisis and a moral compass that points consistently toward whatever outcome maximizes long-term utility.
People call me ruthless. I prefer the term efficient.
The spreadsheet on my monitor is not a financial document. The financial system ended on November 14th, when the cyberattack took out the power grid and the banking servers and approximately three days' worth of humanity's collective faith in abstractions. The spreadsheet is a resource allocation model. Human lives are not listed as line items. They are listed as resource consumers and resource producers. Every human being is both. The spreadsheet's function is to optimize the ratio.
Line 47: Ramirez, E. Producer score: 7.2/10. Consumer score: 3.1/10. Role: Medicinal herb garden. Status: Active. Notes: Highly valuable. Protect.
Line 89: Kowalski, T. Producer: 4.8/10. Consumer: 6.2/10. Role: Perimeter watch. Status: Probation. Notes: Two infractions. Third is exile.
I am not cruel about it. Cruelty implies emotion. This is mathematics.
The prisoner sat on the metal chair in the interrogation room, which was formerly the vault's security office and was now, appropriately, a place where people came to have their lives assessed. He was a refugee, male, early twenties, caught trying to steal insulin from the medical supply cache. His name was Daniel, and he had a face that was either innocent or well-acted, which in my experience are frequently the same thing.
"Explain," I said. Not a command. An invitation. Daniel seemed to respond better to invitations than directives.
"I needed it," he said. "My mother. She's diabetic. She's in Block C. She has four days' supply left."
"How many diabetics are in Block C?"
"Seven."
"How many insulin vials does the medical cache contain?"
"Twenty-three."
"Twenty-three vials divided by seven patients divided by four days is approximately one vial per patient every eighteen days. Is that your understanding of the allocation system?"
He looked at me with eyes that were young and angry and smart. "I understand that you let people die."
"I let people die in accordance with a mathematical model that maximizes the survival probability of the population as a whole. If I prioritized one patient over six, the six would die, and their contributions--"
"Screw the six. She's a person."
"Everyone is a person, Daniel. That is not a distinguishing feature."
He looked away. I let the silence grow. I was not trying to break him. I was trying to understand him. There is a difference.
"Exile," I said finally. "Not execution. You attempted theft, not violence. Theft is a corrective offense. You will be exiled to the western zone. You may travel. You may not return for ninety days. If you violate this, the offense is escalated to violence, and the response changes."
He stood up. The chair scraped against the concrete. "You're a monster."
"That is an emotional assessment," I said. "It is not useful. But you are free to hold it."
He left. I returned to the spreadsheet. I updated Line 89 (actually, I added a new line for him) and moved on to Line 90.
The Synod garden was the most beautiful place in the Consulate.
They were not caged. They did not need to be. The infected individuals who comprised the Synod--my infected individuals, though the possessive felt strange and right in equal measure--volunteered for their roles. They had been treated with an experimental neuro-enhancer derived from the Chimera Strain itself, the same pathogen that had escaped from Aegis on November 14th and turned approximately thirty percent of Los Angeles into aggressive, hyper-coordinated entities.
My entity. Not because I controlled them. Because I had created the enhancer that allowed their consciousness to stabilize. They were not my slaves. They were my responsibility.
There were forty-seven of them. They sat in the garden in small groups, talking in low voices or sitting in silence. The Chimera Strain had given them enhanced strength and heightened sensory perception. It had also, in their case, preserved something that most infected individuals lost: a thread of cognitive continuity. They remembered who they had been. They were just... more now. Stronger. Sharper. Connected to each other in ways that their unenhanced peers were not.
I walked among them like a father walking through a classroom of teenagers: present but not intrusive, observant but not interfering.
"Mr. Cross."
It was Designation-Three, formerly Dr. Priya Sharma, a virologist at UCSF before the escape. Before the enhancement. Before she had become something that was Priya but also something else. A singularity wearing a human shape.
"Designation-Three. How are the patrols?"
"Effective. We have reduced raiding incidents in Sector 4 by eighty percent. The unenhanced raiders do not engage us. They fear the hum."
"The hum is effective. Continue."
She was standing very close. Enhanced infected individuals had a presence that unenhanced people found difficult to describe. It was not threatening. It was... concentrated. Like standing next to someone who was fully, completely present in a way that most humans are not.
"I have a request," she said.
"Obviously. You would not approach me without one."
She smiled. It was a beautiful smile. The Strain preserved facial musculature with an efficiency that was almost generous. "We wish to expand the garden. The current space is insufficient for our numbers, which are growing."
"How fast?"
"Two new cases per week, on average. They are self-reporting. They come to us voluntarily. They understand what we are."
I processed this. The garden expansion would require resources: space, soil, water, labor. It would also require security, as an expanding garden was visible to neighboring territories, and visibility invited attention, and attention from Sal DeLuca or the various warlord factions still operating in greater Los Angeles was rarely benign.
"Draw up a plan," I said. "Present it to me by Friday with a resource estimate. I will allocate accordingly."
Priya's smile widened. "Thank you, Mr. Cross."
"Don't thank me. Thank the model. I am merely its executor."
She left. I stood in the garden alone for a moment, listening to the low murmur of forty-six enhanced infected individuals discussing boundary markers and irrigation schedules. It was the sound of a functioning society. I had built a functioning society.
Back in the vault, I opened the spreadsheet. I added a new section: Synod Expansion. Projected resource cost: 15% increase in water allocation, 20% in labor hours, 10% in security personnel.
I balanced it. I always balanced it.
The final image of my day: me, in the vault, the blue glow of the monitor on my face, my hands on the keyboard, methodical and unhurried, building a ledger that would outlast the flesh that typed it.
Line 112: Sullivan, M. Threat assessment: 6.4/10. Notes: Irish priest. Caravan of 200. Approaching from east. Ideological threat. Monitor.
I did not hate Father Sullivan. Hatred was an inefficient use of cognitive resources. I respected him the way a mathematician respects an elegant proof: for its structural integrity and its annoying ability to exist in direct contradiction to your own theorem.
He preached hope. I preached order. Both were responses to chaos. Only one of them could scale.
I closed the spreadsheet. I would start a new one in the morning. The numbers would be different. They would always be different. The system would adapt.
Because that is what I do. I build systems. And systems, unlike people, do not require hope. They only require maintenance.
And I am very, very good at maintenance.
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l. Human lives are not listed as line items. They are listed as resource consumers and resource producers. Every human being is both. The spreadsheet's function is to optimize the ratio.
Line 47: Ramirez, E. Producer score: 7.2/10. Consumer score: 3.1/10. Role: Medicinal herb garden. Status: Active. Notes: Highly valuable. Protect.
Line 89: Kowalski, T. Producer: 4.8/10. Consumer: 6.2/10. Role: Perimeter watch. Status: Probation. Notes: Two infractions. Third is exile.
I am not cruel about it. Cruelty implies emotion. This is mathematics.
The prisoner sat on the metal chair in the interrogation room, which was formerly the vault's security office and was now, appropriately, a place where people came to have their lives assessed. He was a refugee, male, early twenties, caught trying to steal insulin from the medical supply cache. His name was Daniel, and he had a face that was either innocent or well-acted, which in my experience are frequently the same thing.
"Explain," I said. Not a command. An invitation. Daniel seemed to respond better to invitations than directives.
"I needed it," he said. "My mother. She's diabetic. She's in Block C. She has four days' supply left."
"How many diabetics are in Block C?"
"Seven."
"How many insulin vials does the medical cache contain?"
"Twenty-three."
"Twenty-three vials divided by seven patients divided by four days is approximately one vial per patient every eighteen days. Is that your understanding of the allocation system?"
He looked at me with eyes that were young and angry and smart. "I understand that you let people die."
"I let people die in accordance with a mathematical model that maximizes the survival probability of the population as a whole. If I prioritized one patient over six, the six would die, and their contributions--"
"Screw the six. She's a person."
"Everyone is a person, Daniel. That is not a distinguishing feature."
He looked away. I let the silence grow. I was not trying to break him. I was trying to understand him. There is a difference.
"Exile," I said finally. "Not execution. You attempted theft, not violence. Theft is a corrective offense. You will be exiled to the western zone. You may travel. You may not return for ninety days. If you violate this, the offense is escalated to violence, and the response changes."
He stood up. The chair scraped against the concrete. "You're a monster."
"That is an emotional assessment," I said. "It is not useful. But you are free to hold it."
He left. I returned to the spreadsheet. I updated Line 89 (actually, I added a new line for him) and moved on to Line 90.
The Synod garden was the most beautiful place in the Consulate.
They were not caged. They did not need to be. The infected individuals who comprised the Synod--my infected individuals, though the possessive felt strange and right in equal measure--volunteered for their roles. They had been treated with an experimental neuro-enhancer derived from the Chimera Strain itself, the same pathogen that had escaped from Aegis on November 14th and turned approximately thirty percent of Los Angeles into aggressive, hyper-coordinated entities.
My entity. Not because I controlled them. Because I had created the enhancer that allowed their consciousness to stabilize. They were not my slaves. They were my responsibility.
There were forty-seven of them. They sat in the garden in small groups, talking in low voices or sitting in silence. The Chimera Strain had given them enhanced strength and heightened sensory perception. It had also, in their case, preserved something that most infected individuals lost: a thread of cognitive continuity. They remembered who they had been. They were just... more now. Stronger. Sharper. Connected to each other in ways that their unenhanced peers were not.
I walked among them like a father walking through a classroom of teenagers: present but not intrusive, observant but not interfering.
"Mr. Cross."
It was Designation-Three, formerly Dr. Priya Sharma, a virologist at UCSF before the escape. Before the enhancement. Before she had become something that was Priya but also something else. A singularity wearing a human shape.
"Designation-Three. How are the patrols?"
"Effective. We have reduced raiding incidents in Sector 4 by eighty percent. The unenhanced raiders do not engage us. They fear the hum."
"The hum is effective. Continue."
She was standing very close. Enhanced infected individuals had a presence that unenhanced people found difficult to describe. It was not threatening. It was... concentrated. Like standing next to someone who was fully, completely present in a way that most humans are not.
"I have a request," she said.
"Obviously. You would not approach me without one."
She smiled. It was a beautiful smile. The Strain preserved facial musculature with an efficiency that was almost generous. "We wish to expand the garden. The current space is insufficient for our numbers, which are growing."
"How fast?"
"Two new cases per week, on average. They are self-reporting. They come to us voluntarily. They understand what we are."
I processed this. The garden expansion would require resources: space, soil, water, labor. It would also require security, as an expanding garden was visible to neighboring territories, and visibility invited attention, and attention from Sal DeLuca or the various warlord factions still operating in greater Los Angeles was rarely benign.
"Draw up a plan," I said. "Present it to me by Friday with a resource estimate. I will allocate accordingly."
Priya's smile widened. "Thank you, Mr. Cross."
"Don't thank me. Thank the model. I am merely its executor."
She left. I stood in the garden alone for a moment, listening to the low murmur of forty-six enhanced infected individuals discussing boundary markers and irrigation schedules. It was the sound of a functioning society. I had built a functioning society.
Back in the vault, I opened the spreadsheet. I added a new section: Synod Expansion. Projected resource cost: 15% increase in water allocation, 20% in labor hours, 10% in security personnel.
I balanced it. I always balanced it.
The final image of my day: me, in the vault, the blue glow of the monitor on my face, my hands on the keyboard, methodical and unhurried, building a ledger that would outlast the flesh that typed it.
Line 112: Sullivan, M. Threat assessment: 6.4/10. Notes: Irish priest. Caravan of 200. Approaching from east. Ideological threat. Monitor.
I did not hate Father Sullivan. Hatred was an inefficient use of cognitive resources. I respected him the way a mathematician respects an elegant proof: for its structural integrity and its annoying ability to exist in direct contradiction to your own theorem.
He preached hope. I preached order. Both were responses to chaos. Only one of them could scale.
I closed the spreadsheet. I would start a new one in the morning. The numbers would be different. They would always be different. The system would adapt.
Because that is what I do. I build systems. And systems, unlike people, do not require hope. They only require maintenance.
And I am very, very good at maintenance.
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Code: OTMES-v2-268EFA-95-M0-23-17R616C-68E9
TI: 94.7 | E: 17.98 | M: [10.0,0.5,5.0,5.0,8.0,5.0,7.0,3.0,1.0,5.0] | N: [0.70,0.30] | K: [0.20,0.80] | Angle: 23 deg | Rank: 17 | I: 1.0
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