The Things We Don't Say

It was Tuesday when the motorcycle broke down. Tuesdays were slow at the station, which meant slow was the word Maggie used for everything that wasn't busy but wasn't dead either.

The motorcycle pulled into the parking lot around three in the afternoon, which was the hour when the sun hit the Arizona desert hard enough to make the air shimmer above the asphalt, and the sound it made when it died was the kind of sound that just gave up, like a person sitting down on the floor because standing had become more than they could manage.

Maggie was behind the counter of the convenience store, reading a magazine she'd already read, when she heard it pull in. She looked out through the glass door and saw a man on a motorcycle that had seen better decades, sitting on the bike with his head down while the engine ticked as it cooled.

He got off the motorcycle and kicked the kickstand and stood next to the bike and put his hand on the engine and took it away and put it back again, the way a person touches something they're trying to decide about.

Maggie locked the store door and walked out. Her five-year-old, Ray, was in the back room watching cartoons, which was the arrangement they'd made: he watched cartoons and she kept the store and they didn't talk much about the fact that this was not how a single mother with a child who needed more than cartoons was supposed to live.

"Can I help you?" she said.

The man looked up. He had a mechanic's face, which is to say he had the kind of face that comes from looking at things up close for a living. Oil in the lines of his knuckles. Sun on his neck. A cut on his left eyebrow that had scarred over unevenly.

"My bike's not going to go," he said.

"That much is obvious."

He looked at her, and something in his expression shifted, like he'd expected her to be angry and she wasn't, like he'd expected her to tell him to get off her parking lot and she'd just stated a fact.

"I'm Patch," he said.

"Maggie."

"Maggie. Do you have a phone I can use? I need to call someone."

"I have a phone." She pointed inside. "You can use it. But my line doesn't work with long distance. You need to call local."

Patch nodded and followed her inside. While he was on the phone, Maggie went back behind the counter and picked up her magazine and pretended to read it. She could hear him talking in a low voice, the kind of voice that didn't raise because there hadn't been anyone worth raising it for. When he hung up, he came to the counter and stood there for a moment, looking at the cigarettes and the candy and the coffee machine.

"Do you have coffee?" he asked.

"That's what the machine is for."

"Can you make it?"

She looked at him. He was standing in her store on a Tuesday afternoon, covered in grease, asking a stranger to make him coffee. It was the kind of request that shouldn't have worked.

"Sit down," she said.

He sat on one of the plastic chairs by the window. Maggie made the coffee in the pot behind the counter, not the machine. The machine made sludge. The pot made something that was technically coffee, which was different. She poured two cups and brought one to him.

He took it and drank and made a face that was so honest it was almost rude.

"This coffee is fucking terrible."

Maggie looked at him. She opened her mouth to tell him to mind his language, or to drink it anyway, or to leave, and then she laughed. It was a real laugh, the kind that started in her chest and came out before she could stop it, and it surprised her so much that she had to put her hand on the counter to steady herself.

Patch watched her laugh, surprised himself. Then, slowly, he smiled.

"Sorry," he said. "That was rude."

"It was honest," Maggie said. "I haven't had anyone be honest with me in a long time."

She went back behind the counter. He drank his coffee and sat in his chair and looked out the window at the motorcycle that wasn't going anywhere. Maggie went back to her magazine. Ray's cartoons played from the back room. The desert heat pressed against the glass. Nothing happened for a while. Then Patch's phone call came through, and he left the store to work on his bike in the parking lot, and Maggie went back to reading her magazine, and the Tuesday continued the way Tuesdays do when there's nothing special to report.

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Patch stayed in the area. He didn't have anywhere else to go, he said, and the mechanic he'd called on the phone told him it would be two or three days to get the parts he needed, and three days in a town this size, on a road this empty, was the same as three weeks.

He came to the store every afternoon. He drank Maggie's coffee, which he continued to describe as fucking terrible, and which Maggie continued to make anyway. They talked about small things. The weather. The motorcycle. The road that went through town, which was mostly trucks and not much else this time of year. Patch talked about engines. Maggie talked about nothing in particular, which was her specialty.

On the first evening, he asked about Ray.

"In the back. Watching TV."

"You married?"

"No."

"Divorced?"

"Yeah."

"How long?"

"A year."

Patch nodded. He didn't ask about the father. Maggie didn't offer information. This was the way they did things: carefully, around the edges, like two people walking through a room full of furniture in the dark, learning the shape of things by not bumping into them.

Patch helped around the store. He fixed the broken cooler in the back, which had been making a sound like a dying animal for months and Maggie had been ignoring it because fixing it meant acknowledging that it had been broken. He adjusted the shelves in the snack aisle, aligning the chips and the candy bars with a precision that suggested he'd spent his life making things sit right. He didn't talk about what he was doing while he worked. Maggie didn't ask.

On the second evening, Ray came out from the back room. He was a small boy with his mother's eyes and his father's absence. He stood in the doorway of the store and looked at Patch, who was on his knees in front of the cooler, working with a screwdriver.

"Who's that?" Ray asked.

"That's Patch," Maggie said. "He's fixing the bike."

"Is he fixing the cooler too?"

Patch looked up. "I fixed the cooler. Your mom's coffee is terrible, but I fixed the cooler."

Ray looked at Maggie. "Can he stay for dinner?"

Maggie looked at Patch. Patch looked at the cooler. The cooler stopped making its dying-animal sound, which was the kind of silence that felt like a success.

"We have bread," Maggie said. "And some cheese. And peanut butter."

Patch got off the floor and stood up and brushed his hands on his pants. "I've eaten worse," he said. "I've eaten better. But I've eaten."

They ate in the back room, where Maggie slept and Ray played and there was a table that had been there when the building was a post office in 1962. Patch sat on a chair that groaned when he sat down, which was appropriate because everything in this room groaned—the mattress, the lamp, the window that stuck in the summer and rattled in the winter—and Maggie sat across from him with a sandwich that tasted like bread and cheese and the kind of quiet that exists when two people are trying to figure out if they want to keep talking or stop.

Patch ate slowly. He looked around the room at the things that made it a room and not just a space: a photograph of a woman who looked like Maggie but younger, standing in front of a house that wasn't this one. A Bible on the shelf next to a bottle of aspirin. A calendar on the wall that showed a desert landscape in October, which was four months old.

"Where are you from?" Maggie asked. She hadn't asked before because asking implied that the answer mattered, and she hadn't decided if it did.

"New Orleans."

"You here by yourself?"

"For a while."

"Working as a mechanic?"

"I was working as a mechanic. Now I'm just working."

"What does that mean?"

Patch smiled, a small smile that didn't reach his eyes. "It means I'm fixing what I can find and sleeping when I'm tired and not making plans."

Maggie nodded. She understood not making plans. It was the first rule of life after something went wrong. You don't make plans. You survive the day. Then you survive the next. Then, if you're lucky, you survive the year.

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On the third day, the parts came. Patch stood in the parking lot next to his motorcycle, which was finally, finally going to run, and he kicked the kickstand up and down, testing it, listening to the metal click against metal with the satisfaction of a man who has waited too long for something and is about to get it and isn't sure how to feel about that.

Maggie stood in the doorway of the store, watching him. Ray was inside, watching TV, as he always did. The desert sun was going down, which in Arizona meant the temperature dropped twenty degrees in ten minutes and the sky turned a color that didn't have a name, something between purple and bruise and the inside of a shell you hold to your ear when you're trying to hear something you can't quite remember.

"You ready to go?" Maggie said.

"Yeah," Patch said. He looked at the motorcycle, then at the store, then at Maggie. "I guess."

"You'll take care of yourself?"

"I usually do."

"That sounds like something someone says before something goes wrong."

Patch was quiet for a moment. He tightened a bolt on the motorcycle that didn't need tightening, the way a person fidgets when they don't know what else to do with their hands.

"I'll be alright," he said. "You too."

"I will be."

They stood there in the parking lot as the sun went down and the desert cooled and the stars came out one by one, which in the desert is different from the city. In the city, the stars come out and you can barely see them because of the lights. In the desert, they come out all at once, like someone opened a box and the stars spilled out and covered everything, and you can see them the way you can see your own hand in front of your face, clear and bright and close enough to touch.

Patch got on the motorcycle. He turned the key. The engine caught on the first try, which was the kind of thing that made Maggie feel something she couldn't name and didn't want to examine.

"Thanks," Patch said. "For the coffee. Even though it's fucking terrible."

Maggie almost smiled. "Thanks for fixing the cooler."

He put on his helmet, which was a old thing with a crack in the visor, and kicked the starter, and the motorcycle roared to life with a sound that was almost joy and almost leaving, and he pulled out of the parking lot and onto the road and into the desert and into the stars and into whatever comes next for people who fix things and leave.

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Patch left on a Thursday morning without saying goodbye.

Maggie found his key on the counter next to the coffee machine, sitting there next to a receipt from the gas station down the road and a small piece of paper with two words written on it in handwriting that looked like it had been written quickly: Tank's full.

She stood at the counter and held the note and looked at it and looked out the window at the parking lot where his motorcycle had been and wasn't anymore, and she stood there for a long time, which in Maggie's vocabulary meant ten minutes, which is a long time to stand still when you've spent your life moving.

She threw the note away. She didn't throw it out of anger or hurt or any of the things that people say about this kind of moment in movies. She threw it away because it was paper and paper was trash and trash goes in the trash, and because holding onto a piece of paper that said two words that meant something and nothing was not the same as holding onto a person.

Ray came in from the back room. "Who was the key for?"

"No one," Maggie said. "Just a key."

She went to the gas pump and looked at the tank of Patch's car, which he'd parked in the lot behind the store and which she'd assumed was his because what else would it be doing there, and the tank was full, which was the kind of thing a person does when they don't know how to say what they mean.

She filled the tank again, because the pumps ran on electricity and not sentiment, and Ray came and stood next to her and held her hand, which was small and warm and real, and together they watched the numbers on the pump count up and the gas go into the tank and the tank fill to the top and stop, which is what tanks do when they're full: they stop.

Ray's phone rang. It was his father, calling from wherever his father was, which was not here. Maggie answered and listened and said "fine" because that's what you say when someone you don't know very well asks how you're doing and you don't want to tell them the truth, which is that you're fine in the way a machine is fine when it's running but doesn't feel good about it.

"Fine," she said. "We're fine."

She hung up the phone. She stood behind the counter. She picked up the rag and wiped the counter. The rag moved across the surface in small circles, the way it always did, cleaning a space that would be dirty again by tomorrow, which is the kind of cycle that doesn't have a name but is the name of everything.

Rag on glass. Engine cooling in the desert heat. Coffee going cold in a cup that no one is drinking. These are the things that matter. These are the things we don't say.

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