Spring 2024

Sam Park has never been in love. He is twenty-six years old and he has seen more love than anyone he knows, which is the kind of irony that only exists in this business — the person who witnesses the most love is the person who has the least experience with it.

He is an actor's assistant, which means his job is to be invisible and useful at the same time. This is an uncommon combination. Most people who are invisible are not useful, and most people who are useful are not invisible. Sam is both, and he is paid $18 an hour to be both, which in Los Angeles means he can pay his rent in a studio apartment in East LA and still afford the bus to work every morning.

His phone has a good camera. He uses it to take pictures of people on the subway — not when he's working, but when he's not. When he's not working, he lives in New York, even though he lives in Los Angeles. On the subway, people are honest. They are honest about being tired, about being lonely, about being exactly where they are and hating it and loving it at the same time.

His private Instagram account, @WatcherOnThe6, has 847 followers. Nobody he knows is among them. The photos are of strangers on the 6 train — Lexington Avenue to 125th Street — with captions that are half-observation, half-fiction. "Woman, age 30-35, reading the same page for twelve minutes. Either the book is good or she's avoiding going home." "Man, age 60-70, holding a brown bag from Duane Reade. Insulin or cat food, he won't tell you which." "Couple, age 20-something, sitting close enough to share a headphone cable. Real couples don't share cables. Couples in movies share cables."

He is in love with the idea of love. He has never been in it. But he recognizes it when he sees it — the way you recognize rain when you're standing in it, even though you can't see the clouds.

Cassian Vale is his employer. Cassian is twenty-six, Korean-American from Brooklyn, six feet tall, dark-haired, intense in a way that makes casting directors nervous. He has been acting for twelve years and is just now starting to be noticed. This is the kind of career that breaks people or makes them — there is no middle ground in this business. You either break or you make. There is no space for "doing okay."

Cassian and Priya Callahan meet at a community center in Brooklyn where both their parents volunteer. Priya is twenty-five, Puerto Rican and Irish, an English teacher at a public high school in the Bronx. She teaches Shakespeare to teenagers who would rather be anywhere else. Her method is simple: she makes them see themselves as the tragic heroes they suspect they are.

Cassian is visiting his parents. Priya is there to help organize a reading series. They are introduced by mutual acquaintances from an immigrant community center. They exchange names and smile the polite smile that New Yorkers reserve for people they expect to see again in three days and probably won't.

They DO see each other again. At the community center, at a dinner, at a bodega on Atlantic Avenue where Priya buys soymilk and Cassian buys coffee and they end up standing next to each other in line four times in two weeks. On the fourth time, he says, "You're a regular." She says, "I'm a teacher. Regular is the job."

Sam sees all of this from the periphery. He is always at the periphery. It is his job.

The fall happens on a Tuesday. Cassian is shooting a short film for a streaming service — three episodes, low budget, ambitious crew. He is supposed to descend from a catwalk using a rope rig. The rope rig was inspected by a guy named Tony who was also doing three other jobs that day. The rope breaks. Cassian falls about four meters. He lands on his right side.

Sam is the first person Cassian calls from the hospital. He is also the person who drives Cassian's parents from Brooklyn to Lenox Hill. He is the person who sits in the waiting room and answers questions in halting Norwegian-English. Einar Vale speaks English the way some people speak piano — correctly, but with an accent that makes the vowels sound like they're from a different country.

Sam takes photos. Not for Instagram. Not for posterity. Just for himself. Photos of Priya sitting in the hospital corridor with her head in her hands. Photos of Einar holding Margrethe's hand. Photos of Cassian sleeping in a hospital bed with his mouth open, looking younger and more vulnerable than any character he has ever played.

Priya comes to the hospital every day. She brings books — Shakespeare, obviously, but also Jesmyn Ward and Ocean Vuong. She reads to Cassian. He pretends to be annoyed but falls asleep listening to her voice. Sam documents everything. He doesn't know what to do with the documentation at the time. He just knows he needs it.

Over the next six weeks, Sam watches. He watches the way Priya looks at Cassian when she thinks no one is watching. He watches the way Cassian's shoulders drop half an inch when Priya walks into the room. He watches them in the hospital cafeteria, sitting across from each other eating congee that costs $3.50, talking about nothing that is everything.

He watches Priya get a job offer in Chicago. A private school. Double the salary. A real classroom. He watches Cassian sit in a wheelchair in the hospital room and stare at the wall and say nothing.

They stand on the platform at the 6 station on Lexington Avenue. It is raining. Sam is ten feet away, pretending to read something on his phone. Priya and Cassian hug — not a long hug, not a short hug, a hug that is exactly the right length for two people who are not lovers and might never be and know it.

"See you around," Priya says. This is the American way of saying "I will carry you with me for the rest of my life."

"See you around," Cassian says. This is the American way of saying "I will spend the next ten years wondering if I made the right choice."

The train arrives. Priya gets on. She looks back once. Sam sees her look back once. Cassian does not look back. He stands on the platform watching the train disappear into the dark.

Sam raises his phone and takes one last photo.

He never posts any of it. Not on @WatcherOnThe6. Not anywhere. Some things are too precious to share and too painful to keep. He stores them in a folder on his hard drive labeled "Spring 2024" and he opens it once a year, on a random Tuesday, when the light is right and the city is quiet and he is alone in his apartment in Jersey City and the only sound is the L train rattling over the bridge.

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