Grounded

The water ruined everything.

Beth Kowalski had three shots lined up---the biplane aerobatics, the helicopter hover, the Cessna formation---and a shallow puddle of rainwater from a cracked drain had taken all of them. The Polaroids were swelling in her bag, their images bleeding into grey smudges.

"Damn," she said, which was an understatement.

A man stopped beside her. He was tall and wore a navy blazer with a airline logo stitched over the heart. He held out a paper towel from the food stand behind them.

"Here," he said. "You can lift the prints and let them air-dry. It won't fix the colour, but it'll stop the bleed."

She took the towel. "You're a photographer too?"

"Former. Pilot. Currently a man who watches someone else ruin his afternoon."

"Beth." She extended a wet hand.

"Rick." He shook it, carefully. "That was a good set. The biplane shots were---they had motion. You caught the spin."

"Thank you. I'll---" She opened her bag and winced at the damage. Two of the three were gone. The formation shot was a watercolour of grey and white.

"It's just four hundred dollars' worth of film," she said. "And an afternoon I won't get back."

"Four hundred?" He whistled. "That's---that's a lot of film for a newspaper photographer."

"It's the Pittsburgh Chronicle. We don't have a lot of anything."

He studied her face for a moment---the way she was looking at the ruined photos, which was not anger but something worse, which was the quiet acceptance of someone who had been ruined before and knew it would happen again.

"Can I buy you coffee?" he said. "To compensate for the film?"

"It's not the same as film."

"I know that."

They drank coffee at a table outside the airshow gates, and he told her he was a pilot for Horizon Airlines, based out of Pittsburgh International. She told her she'd been photographing local events for twelve years and still hadn't figured out how to afford health insurance.

"You live here?" he asked.

"Born here. My dad worked the steel mill until it closed. My mother died when I was twenty-three. I take pictures of planes and babies and high school football. It pays rent, barely."

"Do you like it?"

She looked at him over her coffee cup. "Do you like flying?"

"Sometimes. Most days, actually. But not all days."

"Then yes."

He smiled, and it was a tired smile but a real one, and for the first time in a long time, Beth felt something that wasn't quite joy but was close enough on a Tuesday in October.

Round One: Eight Months

They fell together the way things fall in Pittsburgh: slowly, reluctantly, and then all at once.

He flew routes---Pittsburgh to Chicago, Chicago to Dallas, Dallas back to the grey hum of home. She covered high school football and church baptisms and the occasional story that made the front page, which was rare but happened.

The problems started small and accumulated like dust.

He missed Sophie's first day of kindergarten because a storm grounded his flight in Minneapolis and nobody could move the airplane for twelve hours. Beth understood logically. She did not understand emotionally.

"I'm sorry," he said when she called him from the school parking lot, watching other fathers load their children into cars.

"It's fine."

"It's not fine."

"It's---it's pilot things. I know."

He came home that weekend with lavender flowers from a shop near O'Hare and a look on his face that said he didn't know how to apologize for the nature of time zones.

The alcohol started subtly. A beer after a long week. Two beers after a bad week. One night, Beth found him asleep on the sofa with an empty whiskey bottle on the coffee table and had to step over him to get to bed.

"Rick," she said.

"Mmm."

"You have to stop."

"I know."

"You say that every time."

"I know."

They broke up on a Thursday morning. He left before she woke up. The door was unlocked. She found the lavender flowers on the counter, wilted by noon.

She did not cry. She put them in the compost and went to work.

Round Two: Two Years

They met again at Giant Eagle. Of course they did.

Beth was buying the same brand of pasta sauce she always bought. He was standing in the next aisle, comparing two kinds of coffee, looking more tired than she had ever seen him.

"Hello," he said.

"Hello."

"How have you been?"

"Fine. You?"

"Good."

They stood in the cereal aisle for a long time, two adults who had once been intimate with each other, neither knowing how to bridge the gap between "we used to be something" and "we are nothing now."

"I have news," Beth said finally. "I got a freelancing contract with the Post-Gazette. Better pay, no benefits."

"That's great."

"Thanks."

"My licence---" He stopped.

"What about it?"

"Nothing. You don't need to---I mean, it's fine. It's okay."

She waited. He took a breath.

"My licence was suspended. Three months. Minor---a judgment issue during approach. Nobody hurt anybody. But the FAA doesn't do 'minor' very well."

Beth felt something shift inside her, a door opening she thought had been nailed shut. "How long ago?"

"Six weeks."

"Why are you telling me this?"

"Because you asked, and I want---I want to be honest with you. About everything."

He moved in two weeks later. His things fit in the trunk of her Cavalier. He had three suitcases, a guitar he couldn't play, and a photograph of his father that he kept in a drawer.

Sophie liked him immediately, which was both a gift and a liability. Children loved easily and forgot easily, and Beth had seen both happen.

In December, Pat---her father---was diagnosed with COPD exacerbation. He needed care. Beth needed help. Rick provided it, silently, without making it a thing. He drove Pat to appointments. He helped him with his inhaler. He sat with him in the evenings and said nothing, which was the one thing Pat seemed to accept from anyone.

One evening in the hospital corridor, Pat was asleep and Rick stood beside Beth, both of them waiting for lab results.

"I sit in the cockpit," he said quietly, "and I look down at the little houses, and I think I'm bigger than them because I can fly. But then I'm smaller than them because I can't---I can't stay in one place. I can't fix this." He gestured at the hospital, at Pat, at Beth's face. "I'm just a guy in a metal tube, Beth. That's all I am."

"You're just tired," she said.

He knew she was wrong, and she knew he knew.

They broke up in March. He left the key on the counter. She locked the door behind him and sat on the floor of her hallway until Pat called her name.

Round Three: Eleven Months

They didn't break up. They just---stopped.

Rick's suspension was extended. The airline let him go. He worked nights at a Walmart in Moon Township, stocking shelves under fluorescent lights that made him look grey.

Beth's contract with the Post-Gazette ended when the editor decided AI could write better event recaps than a human. She started freelancing for a few local publications, which paid enough to keep the lights on and not enough to keep the fridge full.

Rick came home most nights. Sometimes he didn't come home at all. The couch was his backup when Walmart hours got cut.

Sophie asked the question in November, when she was seven and old enough to understand that grown-ups were supposed to have it figured out.

"Is Rick my daddy?"

Beth looked up from the dishes. Rick was in the other room, watching a documentary about the Space Shuttle. The volume was too low. It always was.

"No, Soph. He's not."

"Then why is he here?"

Beth dried her hands on a towel and stood there, thinking of the water that had ruined her photographs at the airshow, the way some things are damaged beyond repair simply because the world is not designed to protect the things you love.

"Because sometimes people help each other," she said. "Even when it doesn't work out."

Sophie considered this, which was the most unreasonable thing she had ever been asked to do, and then went back to her homework.

Bill came in December. They sat at the kitchen table, which was also Sophie's homework table and, on some nights, Rick's dining table. Three people at one table, none of them speaking, looking at the same stack of envelopes that contained the shape of their failure.

"I'm sorry," Rick said.

"It's not your fault."

"Then whose fault is it?"

She didn't answer. There was no one to blame. The mill had closed. The airline had outsourced. The newspaper had automated. The water had been there when it was.

Round Four: The Rest of It

The Canadian job offer came in November 2018. Winnipeg. A regional carrier that paid better than American airlines and, apparently, didn't care about a three-month FAA suspension from six years ago.

Rick drove to Ohio on a Friday evening---a detour of two hundred and forty miles he had planned for three weeks and only told Beth the morning he left.

They sat in his truck at a rest stop on I-70, somewhere near Wheeling. It was raining. The kind of rain that doesn't announce itself; it just arrives and makes everything grey and wet without asking permission.

"Winnipeg," Beth said.

"Yep."

"That's---that's far north."

"Yep."

"You leaving?"

"Tonight."

She reached into her bag and pulled out a photograph---Sophie at the airshow last year, grinning in a flight jacket that was three sizes too big, standing in front of a P-51 Mustang with the kind of joy that only exists in children who still believe metal things can fly because they want to, not because they have to.

She handed it to him.

He put it in his wallet, next to a picture of Sophie at six, missing her front teeth, smiling like she had just discovered that the world was a joke and she was in on it.

He started the truck. The wipers moved. The rain continued.

"Rick," she said.

"Yeah?"

"Drive safe."

"Yeah."

He pulled away from the curb and merged onto the interstate, and Beth stood in the rain and watched his taillights disappear into the grey, the way everything does.

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