Nobody Cares
The factory whistle blew at six in the morning and Linda Kowalski was already at her station, standing on the concrete floor that was cracked in places and sticky in others, watching the belt move parts of things she would never assemble into a complete thing, because she did not know what the parts were for.
She was twenty-seven. She had been working at this factory for six years. She had been married to Frank for four. She had been pregnant for eight weeks and she knew this the way she knew the factory whistle — without thinking, without wanting to.
At ten minutes to nine, she felt something wrong between her legs. She looked down and saw blood on her uniform skirt. Dark red on gray fabric. She did not make a sound. She just kept working. Her hands moved the way they always moved — pick up the bracket, align the holes, press the pin, move to the next station — and her mind was somewhere else, in a room she had not been in for three years, when she had stood in front of a mirror and seen something she did not want to see and had not told Frank about it because telling him would have meant making it real and she was not ready for that.
She went to the bathroom at lunch. Closed the stall door. Looked at the toilet paper when it was stained and decided she did not have enough. She used more toilet paper from the roll on the wall. She used all of it. She left the stall and did not look back.
At twelve-thirty, she sat in Frank's truck in the factory parking lot. He was eating a sandwich — ham and cheese on white bread, the kind he had been eating since he was a boy — and she told him.
"I'm pregnant."
He chewed. He swallowed. He said, "You should see a doctor."
He said it the way he might have said the transmission on the truck was making a noise. Not unkindly. Not lovingly. Just a fact, the way facts are exchanged between two people who have run out of things to say to each other that matter.
"Okay," Linda said.
The clinic was on East Carson Street. It was a small building with a waiting room that had magazines from 1982 and a chair that was torn and patched and still uncomfortable. Linda sat in the chair and waited for twenty minutes while a woman in her sixties with a cigarette in an ashtray on her lap read a magazine about gardening.
The doctor was young. He looked at her chart. He looked at her. He looked at the chart again.
"You're lucky," he said.
"Lucky?"
"It's not worse. You could have lost more."
"How much did I lose?"
He did not answer that. He wrote something on a pad. He tore off the page. He handed it to her.
"Take this," he said. "And rest. No more standing for twelve hours."
Linda took the pad. She nodded. She did not understand what "rest" meant when your rent was due on the first and your husband spent his paycheck at O'Malley's on Friday nights and the factory paid by the piece and every piece you did not assemble was a dollar you did not earn.
She went back to the factory on Thursday. On Friday, Mr. Henderson pulled her aside.
He did not yell. He did not even raise his voice. He stood next to her at the assembly line and said, in a tone that was neither kind nor unkind but was simply factual, the way a man might say the sky is gray or the river is cold: "Linda, you're slowing the line."
She nodded. She went back to work. She worked faster. She bled more.
On Saturday, she was at home. Frank was at work. She was sitting on the edge of the bed, waiting for something to stop. It did not stop. She called the clinic. The receptionist — the same receptionist from three days ago, who had not learned her name — said to come in on Monday.
Monday came. Linda went to the clinic. The doctor was different — older, less patient, the kind of man who had seen so many women in this chair that he had stopped seeing them as people and started seeing them as cases, and cases were things you handled efficiently and moved on from.
He looked at her. He looked at the chart from the younger doctor. He made a note on his own pad. He did not ask how she was feeling. He did not ask anything.
"Take it easy," he said. "We'll see you next month."
Linda went home. Frank wasn't there. She knew where he was. She made tea. She drank it standing up in the kitchen. The refrigerator was making a noise — a low, continuous hum that had been there for three months and she had meant to fix it and had not.
The bleeding continued. She bought pads from the drugstore on Liberty Avenue. The woman at the counter did not look at her. Nobody looked at her. She paid with cash and put the pads in her bag and went home.
She kept working at the factory. The line did not stop for her. Nobody stopped for her. Mr. Henderson did not pull her aside again. He did not need to. She was working as fast as she could, which was not as fast as the line required, which was not as fast as anyone needed, which was the problem — she was a problem that nobody had time for.
On a Wednesday — it was the third Wednesday of November, or maybe the fourth, time moved differently when nothing changed — Linda lay in bed and felt something inside her go quiet.
Not painful. Just quiet. Like a television turned off in an empty room. Like a clock that has stopped ticking and nobody has noticed because the wall clock is still working and the radio still tells the time and one less quiet thing in a house full of quiet things does not matter.
She did not call anyone.
She did not get out of bed. The blanket was warm. The pillow was cool on one side and warm on the other — she had been sleeping on the warm side for weeks and had not flipped it. She lay on the warm side and looked at the ceiling and the ceiling looked back and it was the same ceiling it had always been and it would be the same ceiling when she was gone and that was not sad. It was just true.
Frank came home that night. He came home the next night. He came home the night after that. On the third night, he found her asleep on the couch. The television was on. The volume was low. She looked peaceful, which was not the same as looking alive, and he carried her to bed because that is what you do when your wife is asleep on the couch and the television is on and it is late and you have to get up at six in the morning for the factory.
He did not know she was dead. He did not know until Mrs. Gable, his neighbor across the hall, called the landlord on the fifth day because the milk in Linda's refrigerator had been sitting there too long and the smell was coming through the wall and Mrs. Gable had lived in this building for twenty years and she knew the difference between a woman who was working late and a woman who was not coming back.
That's how it ended. Not with a bang. Not with a scream. With spoiled milk and a refrigerator making a noise that nobody fixed.
The factory whistle blew at six the next morning and Frank did not go. He sat in the truck in the parking lot and ate a sandwich and did not think about anything.
OTMES Objective Codes: TI: 55.7 | Level: T3 (Martyrdom) M1: 5.0 | M3: 6.0 | M4: 2.0 N1: 0.10 | N2: 0.90 K1: 0.90 | K2: 0.10 Theta: 180° (Realist/Cold) V: 0.70 | I: 1.00 | C: 0.80 | S: 0.20 | R: 0.05 Dominant: M1_Tragedy | Passive | Individual_Neglect
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