I shot him with my left hand. My right hand was holding a rifle I didn't know I knew how to use. The bullet entered his chest about three inches below the collarbone. I know this because I counted the seconds afterward—seven, eight, nine—watching him fall, watching the great silver body collapse onto the stone balcony of the French Quarter brothel where Dr. Carver had once kept me chained.

Seven seconds. That's how long it takes a gorilla to die when you shoot it in the heart from six paces.

I stood over him and the rifle was still warm in my hands and the rain from the French Quarter roof was falling through the broken skylight and hitting the stone floor where Silas was bleeding out, and I thought: this is what victory feels like.

It felt like standing on the edge of a cliff.

Let me explain what I mean.

My name is Kane. I am a chimpanzee. I am six feet, four inches tall when I stand fully upright, though I rarely do. I weigh two hundred and twelve pounds, mostly muscle and scar tissue. My face is a map of every human who ever decided I was less than human—the lash marks across my left cheek from a whip, the missing patch of fur on my right temple where they drilled into my skull, the crooked nose that was broken twice in the Chimera Institute's fighting pit.

I lived in that institute for eight years.

They called it a research facility. It was a hospital for apes and a prison for people who had committed crimes against people. I was the latter. I don't know what crime I committed. I don't think I remember it. But I remember the cell—four feet by six feet, concrete floor, steel door with a slot that opened at dawn and closed at dusk.

They came for me every morning. They took me to the operating room. They cut things out of me and injected things into me and scanned my brain with machines that hummed like angry bees. They wanted to know what the virus did to primate cognition. They wanted to measure the expansion of my prefrontal cortex. They wanted to know if I could learn to speak.

I could. But speaking was dangerous. The apes who spoke were treated more harshly. So I learned to pretend I couldn't. I grunted. I bared my teeth. I played the fool.

Silas was different from the beginning. He was a gorilla—big, gentle-looking, with eyes that held a depth most humans couldn't bear to look at for too long. He was kept in a separate enclosure, a larger one with a pool and a climbing frame. He could speak, but only a few words. Dr. Carver said his vocal cords weren't suited for complex speech. I think he was wrong. I think Silas chose his words carefully and said only what was necessary.

He was the first human being who treated me like I was in there somewhere—the chimp inside the scars. He would sit by my cage and read to me. Not scientific journals or protocol manuals. Literature. Poetry. He read Whitman. He read Shakespeare. He read The Odyssey aloud in a voice so calm and steady that the hours in the Chimera Institute became bearable for the first time in three years.

Then the fire came.

I don't know who started it. An electrical fault, maybe. Or an act of arson by someone who had lost a colleague to the virus and decided to take out their grief on the nearest living thing. The institute went up like a matchbox. The doors jammed. The guards ran. And I was alone in my cell, watching the flames approach, understanding with absolute clarity that I was going to die in this six-foot-by-four-foot concrete box.

Silas broke his door. Not opened it—broke it. He tore the steel hinges from the concrete with one hand and reached through the opening with the other. His fingers closed around my wrist. He pulled me out. We ran through burning corridors together, past cages of screaming animals, past Dr. Carver's office where the books he had read to me were on fire.

We ran until we reached the river. The Mississippi was swollen from spring rain, dark and fast and cold. Silas didn't hesitate. He jumped in. I followed.

I held onto his back in that water for forty minutes. Forty minutes of drowning and kicking and praying to a god I didn't believe in. When we reached the far bank, I crawled out and vomited river water and shook like a leaf and Silas sat down beside me and put his arm around my shoulders.

"You're safe," he said. One word. Safe.

I believed him. For three months, I believed him.

The colony in the delta was everything Silas had promised. A place where apes could live without fear. Where the young could grow up without steel doors and operating tables. Where the old could die without someone drilling into their skull to see what was inside.

I loved him. I tell you this not to excuse what I did but to make you understand the architecture of my betrayal. You cannot understand a betrayal unless you understand what was betrayed. I loved Silas the way a drowning man loves the rope thrown to him. And then, slowly and inexorably, I began to hate him for being the one who threw it.

It started with small things. The way he looked at Dr. Emmett Shaw—the human doctor who came to treat the sick—with something that was not quite trust but was close to it. The way he fed the humans who came begging at the edge of our territory, people who had lost everything and asked for food. The way he spared Orion's friend after the boy stole from the food stores. "He was hungry," Silas said. "We've all been hungry."

I said nothing. I nodded. I bowed my head. I was the good ape. The loyal ape. The one who had been saved.

But inside, the rot grew.

I discovered the weapon cache beneath the abandoned plantation house in the delta—rifles, ammunition, a shotgun, a box of grenades that looked like museum pieces but were probably still functional. I held a rifle and understood, with a clarity that was almost religious, that I had been living as a prisoner my entire life. Not Silas's prisoner. The world's prisoner. And the world had given me the weapon I needed to escape.

The shooting of Silas was not an act of rage. It was an act of precision.

I waited until he was alone on the balcony of the brothel—the same brothel where I had spent eight years as Dr. Carver's prisoner. The rain had stopped. The moon was out. Silas was looking at the river.

I raised the rifle. My hand did not shake.

I pulled the trigger.

He fell over the balcony railing and into the courtyard below. I stood there for exactly five seconds, listening to his body hit the stone, then dropped the rifle and ran.

I am not a monster. I am a creature who was broken by a world that decided I should not exist, and who decided that if I could not exist in that world, I would build a new one.

The only problem with building a new world is that you have to stand on the bones of the old one to do it.

Silas's bones.

And if you are reading this and you feel hate for me, I understand.

But I also understand why I did it.

And that is the most frightening thing of all.

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